Lately because of New Year and also Chinese New Year.......I
have been having problem sleeping.....because I have been
reflecting on my life......thinking about my life.....
I feel unhappy about my life because I feel there are some
things unmet and unfulfilled....
I think I am too ugly.
This has caused problems with me such as me cramping up (too
shy)
Even when I go cycling at the beach, always 99% of the time,
girls would make comments that my dog is cute "look the dog is so
cuuute".....but they never say that I look cute.....so I lose to my
dog......
What to do, my dog is more handsome than me and can attract
girls better than me.
So after much thinking and reflecting, I dont wanna waste more
time and more years, I have decided I must become a beach hunk.
Now I cannot go shirtless at the beach because I am too skinny,
no muscles.
So I have decided I must start a bodybuilding routine......
Lately I have looked at bodybuilding forums and websites and
YouTube videos. It seems more complicated than I expected. Because
this thing requires a lot of self-discipline, and unfortunately I
dont think I have it.
I want to do it but I dont think I have the self-discipline for
it.
I really regret it....I have fallen down so much.....actually
when I was younger I was quite fit, at one time I was the fastest
student of my entire cohort in 100m sprint. True story.
But now as I become older, I dont have the drive and the
determination to make myself fit. I just dont.
:(
I really feel I must do something about my body (because Im too
skinny) and I wanna start bodybuilding programme and finally have a
solution for my psychological issues.....but the path from here to
there is not obvious.......I mean it's obvious but it's not obvious
that I can do it due to my lack of self-discipline.....
What can I do...?
Anybody here is a bodybuilder...?
How did u get started and how did u maintain
self-discipline..?
Thank you,
