You got to make a decision.
If you don't decide for your own, no one else can. Be strong,
manz... that's all I can say. It's not that I don't understand. I'm
just as concerned and I can truly felt the way you felt when I
experienced this thing in the past.
So, right now, you have two choices - Stay like this, or move
on.
I'm not saying it's an easy thing to do. But hey, you have my
fullest support ya.
I believe you can do it too, since I've already gotten over my own
stuff.