Alrite here is it: the second part of the story. I will put in
the concluding part soon 
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Leaf
During high school time, I used to like to collect leaves. I used
to pick them up and keep them pressed between the pages of my
books. Maybe because I felt that, in a way, I have a lot to learn
from it. I felt that it must have taken a lot of courage for a leaf
to leave the tree she has been relying on for such a long time.
Because of this strange hobby of mine, most of my friends called
me Leaf.
I will always remember the third year of my high school. It is
during that time that I met a guy who would have a large impact in
my life, someone whom I would always remember no matter where I go.
I found out that we shared a lot of interests and maybe this was
what that brought us closer together. Until one day, I realized
that I have fallen in love with him.
I was with him when he was still with his first girlfriend. Because
he considered me to be his close buddy, he would often tell me
stories about her. That was the first time I have ever felt so
jealous towards another girl. This feeling is something I could not
describe, it was a sour and bitter feeling, and it made me felt
terrible most of the time. He was only together with her for a
short while though. When he told me that he has broken up with her,
I was really happy but I had to hide my happiness and spend the
whole night consoling him instead.
However he did not go dateless for long. Soon, he was going out
with another girl, who would later become his second girlfriend. I
bumped into them once, when they were holding each other close and
kissing. I was immensely hurt at that time and all I could do was
run off so that he would not see the hot tears that had begun to
gather in my eyes. I began to suspect he never loved me at all. It
is just another case of unrequited love. But yet he treated me so
well sometimes that my heart would melt and I would fall for him
all over again. I can say that I am his closest confidante, I know
of his habits and his interests but one thing I could never figure
out about him is his feelings. I contemplating asking him how he
felt towards me but I was afraid of rejection and what effect it
would have towards our friendship.
No matter how much he hurt me, I still stayed by his side. I cared
for him a lot, hoping one day he would realize that and come to
love me just as much as I loved him. It is like waiting for his
phone calls every night, waiting him for him to send me SMS. I know
that no matter how busy he is, he would always make time for me.
Sometimes I wondered if I should continue to wait. I endured a lot
of pain during those years. I wanted to leave him but my stubborn
heart wanted to hold on to him. This dilemma continued to accompany
me for the rest of my high school years.
Until my second last year in high school, another guy began to
pursue me. At first, I rejected him because I still could not give
up on him. But finally, the other guys persistence won me over. I
decided that I would give him a chance and a small place in my
heart
.
He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from
the tree. In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this
wind just a small footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring
this badly battered leaf to a far away & better land. Finally I
left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay. So
is leaf departure because of wind pursuit? Or is it because Tree
never asked her to stay?
i.c.y
