Originally posted by DevilAngel77:
firstly, if u gather more emotion, they will not make u
feel awful.. they will make u the first most emotions record
holder! kekeke.. 
ok lah.. joke aside... 
back to ur
situation...
icy ah icy... confusion comes in when you do not have a clear mind
of what you want..
i know wat u r going thru now.. times and times and again, he never
fail to appear at the worse times... his appearance never seems to
push you towards the path you decided (or perhaps not firm yet)..
he never fail to be kick out of ur mind.. or is ur mind still
desiring for him? secretly hoping tt things will turn out
well?
icy ah, think back on the trip.. was he especially gentleman to you
alone? or to every ger? if he was gentleman to you only, does it
means anything? or is it jus your mind generating happy tots and
images? if he was to all gers, isn't it more obvious? 
sometimes when the loneliness kicks in, any "extra" care and
concern can easily melt a person's heart... right at the moment
when u have decided to give him up, this is the point where ur
heart is the weakest.. cos ur heart is now the battlefield for ur
"loving-him-tots" and "leaving-him-tots".. being strained out, u r
most easily swayed back into "loving-him" when he show tt little
extra care/concern for u... 
i'm jus into the some how similar situation as u now.. but i keep
telling myself it wun work out.. and i have to be firm about it...
keep reminding urself of the reason why you wanna give up.. always
remind urself regularly.. be firm of ur decision and dun give
urself any reason to have regrets..
[b]STICK BY YOUR DECISION AND NEVER
REGRET IT!
if you need someone to have to remind you constantly, do it!
if you need to write in your diary, do it!
if you need to stick it up on ur wall, do it!
if you need to dream abt it, do it!
do everything u can to help u firm ur decision!
look at your results now.. think abt your parents, think abt the
money, think abt your effort for the past years tt you have put in
to get to the place where u r now.. is it worth throwing everything
down the drain jus because of 1 stupid silly guy? 
if u really want to let it affect u, let it
affect u AFTER u completed ur studies hor!
If tis thread can help you in any way, this thread is not wasted.
any response to tis thread are also not wasted.
Sorry if i sound very harsh.. but if things had to be tis way, tts
the way it has to be...[/b]
thanks for the reply.
i dunno why he keeps doing this to me. he was extra nice to me
during the trip, mebbe becos the other gals already have their own
boyfrens with them. so he and i were the only single ones in the
trip so it made sense if we stick to each other more since the
others doesn't want any 'lamp post' in their way. so most of the
time we hanged out together and i know some of my frens in the trip
are beginning to suspect that i might feel something for him...they
took pictures of us together and some of them asked me if we were
already a couple. i do not know what is his reaction to this
tho...
like u said, he keeps appearing at the worst moment...how can i
forget him if this keeps going on...
i.c.y
