eh I didn't see this thread until now, has been really busy with
my schoolwork this whole evening...had to proofread one of my
assignments cos I thought I did it wrongly when I compared it with
my fren's one, turns out that hers was wrong 
Then had to revise
my French vocabulary, have to code program *sigh* A bit overwhelmed
le...
This is what I wrote earlier this afternoon in my blog:
I have stooped to a point when I have to wear a rubberband on my
hand just so that I can snap myself out of it (literally) everytime
depressing thoughts pass through my mind.
My mind and heart are quarrelling again. I wish I know how to find
peace within myself...
And now everytime I stop whatever I am doing to breathe, whenever I
wake up in the morning, before I go to sleep at night, I have to
keep reminding myself..there will be no regrets over all the
decisions I have made in my life. Whatever the consequences might
be, whether it will bring me more pain or happiness in the future,
I will accept and live with them, no matter how hard it will
be...
You don't know just how much strength it took me to make these
decisions...so I am asking you to not judge why I am feeling this
way.
I wish there is a way for me to know for sure that I have made the
right choices, that I have done the right thing...
I hope I can find peace soon...
And yea, dun call him freak, I dun wan to blame anyone, I guess we
are both just not ready for this kinda thing...for now, since I
have done all I could, I will let Fate decides for me what is going
to happen next...
i.c.y
