Your opinion on the things I've been thinking about

MrZenic SG · 2011-07-31T10:49:23+00:00

@Kosen Thanks man. I think ill maybe work on categorizing my thoughts, that way people can choose what topics they want to read on. The reason i didnt want t...

MrZenic SG

I'd just like to share some random stuffs I think about. It may not flow well as I'll try to keep up to what my mind is thinking -not all of these thoughts were written down at one go, i try to type as much things out when I'm in the 'thinking mode'. Comment on the thoughts(doesnt have to be all, you can be selective) and maybe share if you have similar/diff things you think of/have a stand on

Life

If it were matter, it would have a mass of infinity and undefined dimensions. Its depth is beyond imaginable and its shape is subjective to individuals.

The meaning of life itself is a tough, vague. It would be further branched into the start, the process, the purpose and the after-end. Societies are created overtime and believes start to ignite, spread and finally took over. Fear of the unknown and incomprehensible can be manipulated and channeled to the creation of faith. Religions are seen to make the pieces all fall into place, answering the unanswerable with ‘the power of an almighty’.

Each claiming it’s the real one and usually provided guidance to conduct, ways worship and spiritual help. The meaning of life varies from religion to religion. To worship. To be tested. To be connected with God and so on.

Life is always described as short. Having only less than a hundred years to live, are we doing what we really want to do in life? Are we spending too much time on things people want us to do?

The afterlife. What really awaits us after we die? Do we stay and stray around as spirits and ghosts with or without a purpose? Or do we have to go through a judging process to determine how well behaved and faithful were are when we were alive, and then sent to heaven or hell accordingly? Do we get a change to meet the gods or God? Or do we start anew in a new body? Or is there nothingness after life? Is it possible that after we die, we would be purposeless and just exist as a non-existent matter experiencing the feeling of nothingness?

Are we prepared to die? A few months a go I thought I was. For now I’m still unsure. There are many aspects of lives that we as individuals want to achieve. Some are noble, and some aren’t. Some are personal, and some are global. Is life be a platform for us beings to have fun, progress and celebrate or are we here for a greater purpose? It’s like being a video game. Do the characters know of the outside world that is actually controlling them? Do they know that they don’t have the power to control their actions? This is where the theories of dimension apply, where simply only larger dimensions can exist in smaller dimensions and its vice versa does not exist.

Others before self. Really? Why make others’ lives better when we have our own lives to lead, enjoy and cherish. Should we live and base our conduct on others’ expectations? Should we care what others think? If yes, why do so? Why please others when we have our own lives to live and enjoy. Should we change the way we behave, the way we look the way we talk just to satisfy others? Who are they for us to please? What gain do we get that is superior to enjoying our only one and only life? By helping them does it make their life more important than yours?

They say responsibilities change a man. This is as responsibilities come with expectations. Expectations change men. Can one resist or minimize the change so small so to meet the expectation but at the same time preserve his or her true colors and conduct? Or should one compensate or tarnish his or her image to have fun being his or herself? Is this the price for recognition and authority? Sacrificing one’s ‘self’, time, friends for a position/rank. It is worth it?

It’s so easy to give advice to others. Everyone has problems. Why is it that we can give the best advices to others yet unable to act on it when we face it ourselves? Were we made to help one another? Are encouraging and giving moral support a necessity for a society’s progress? One can only know the depth and psychological impacts of a problem by only truly bring in the person’s shoe. It’s easier said than done.

You are what your friends are. From observation and experience, I believe that the statement ‘you are what your friends are’ is valid. There will always be someone in a clique of friends who unconsciously act as the leader. It is he who make the decisions despite the putting up of a ‘show’ of democracy for his votes would determine more votes from his peers. Soon, there will be an exchange of traits, characteristics and habits. This will be followed by common thinking structures, similar thoughts and frequent ‘cutting’ of words, where ‘cutting’ refers to at least 2 speakers saying the same word/phrase/sentence. The final stage would be knowing what the other is thinking just by gestures or eye contact. All this would not have been developed if the first stage was not established properly. The first stage consists of a small talk that then evolved into a friendly level discussion and finally an establishment of common interests. This is where the foundation of the friendship begins.

As for the phenomenon of exchange of traits and behaviour, I have put myself in an experiment to see how much my friends and I would ‘trade’. It was more than experiment as I believed that is was for the greater good. I believe that I was a good influence to them and thus by carrying this out, the good that will come out of it will most likely outweigh the ‘bad’ that I receive. I am not labeling them as bad, I am just referring to certain bad traits that they have, as exchange of good traits are harder to identify and that the good that I receive is a bonus (I don have an idea of how to phrase this). As time passes by, it has been more than a year now, I find myself being more like them as I can be. I most definitely have changed in terms of how behave and how I respond to situations. It has come to a point whereby the persona that I have built with/for them has become so strong that it is having a ‘spillover’ effect, affecting my other personas in both good and bad ways. Yes, it is that strong. The good thing is that I see my friends carrying out the behaviour that I have. They too, have certainly change especially in they way they think. It has become more alike to that of mine.

I am the type of person who would observe, analyze and make predictions to what I see of other’s behaviour. It has become second nature for me to judge and predict their lifestyle, common behaviour, background and so on. The same goes when people look at me. I would guess how they think of me, and then change appropriately. Sometimes I purposely choose my words so wisely so that I could totally change their perspective on some things. I’ve experimented it once, which includes some conscious acting of ‘unconscious’ actions and expressions that usually only shows in a jiffy. It added to the authenticity of the act. At the moment where he’s reaction changed, I knew my attempt was successful. I was lucky he was a naïve guy. I knew him for quite a long time and already knew way of thinking. However, I did indeed feel rather bad sometime after the incident. I don’t know if I should feel lucky, unfortunate or guilty to been doing the things I do. Manipulating others to think the way I want them to as they are too easily ‘cheated’ in a way. I plead guilty. Sorry.

Some of these changed when I met someone who thinks the way I do. He was able to know what I was thinking and was always a step ahead of me. Even my mum is thinks at least a step ahead of me. I was rather impressed when she made logic of a subconscious decision I made. Her explanation made perfect sense and was probably what my subconscious mind was thinking. I knew I was no match for her for she did raise me.

What if the very foundation of science, elements and theories like the kinetic particle theory are untrue and that all the studies and theories were pure coincidence?

Tired of getting told what to do and what I’m capable of. Why do I succumb to instructions and requests so easily? I try to hard to please others that I don’t even think of my own self-interest. Living my life for others. Doing what I’m told to do so I don’t disappoint. I just learnt to say no, and the journey has been tough. The feeling of guilt is like a knife driving down my abdomen. I’m definitely not used to this and at the same time not wanting to change back to what I used to be.

My role. A son. A brother. I don’t think I’ve been playing my role well. I’ve been neglecting family time. Its not totally my fault. At least I think so. I never really share my experience and stuff I encounter at school with my parents, despite me being in school most of the time. At home I’m much more reserved as I’m always tired, stressed or angry. When I’m feeling any either of these, I’d usually ignore to my family members who talk to me. Not that I don’t respect them. Its just that I fear my response. When I respond, I am afraid that I’ll shout or answer back really rudely. Its something about me that I learn and I have to control ever since I disrespected one of my old one rudely.

How can I be happy when I know out there people are dieing every few seconds. What am I doing in school? Trying to go to university and then getting a well paid job. Having a family and trying to get rich. Is that it. Cause if it is, then I would consider changing most of it cause I can stand to live in a life of luxury when people in Africa don’t even what Americans call human rights. I don’t even know why I deserve such luxury. I have a shelter, food, entertainment and everything else. What is stopping me from helping others out there? Is it really every man for himself? Where’s our humanitarian values? We spend billions in observing rocks in the sky and we cant even spend a dollar for another human life. How can I live a life knowing that there are others out there living waiting to die. Is life about being the best? Or is it a test to us humans? Why cant we just eradicate poverty and just embrace the economic consequences. Haven’t we had enough? Haven’t we took enough? A sad lot. A sad lot we are.

How many types of purposes to live out there? People who want to change the world. People who just want to live comfortably. People who live to submit to god. People who want to be the best. People who want to be famous.

Parenting childhood – affect behaviour , religion

Responsibilities – restricted.

Memories – how pieces of memories are able to connect tgt

Bigger picture, greater good – studying, work, family small

Put myself in others shoes, actor

Actor – characteristics / facial exp / gestures / speech don’t know which to play

Have multiple personas, only after transiting from one to another subconsciously then will I have the power to willingly transit to another

Think 3 steps head – conscious – always thinking/predicting what people are thinking/analyzing

Body as a capsule

Feeling of nothingness. Abosolute.

Think Vs Am

Think im confident/highesteemed but not

Think im not afraid to voice out but I am I scared of rejection

Think im positive but im negative

Blind spots – self realisation

Creation by science – chances – adapted too well

Fear is not faith

Evidence suggesting that technology like flying was present in ancient times. – concept of civilization/earth cycle

Watch A LOT of videos. Debates on creationists and atheists. Science theories. Conspiracy theories. Illuminati I took a month to understand the whole thing – everything is related to it.

The level of coherence and maturity when one talks and write is different.

World belong to us- we do as we please – nature food animals

Eating animals – cruel? Torture killing Sympathy? Feelings too?

My mind had a mind of its own – filter.

Psychology – interest

Able to control personas but not emotions

Should we do things that benefit the smaller or bigger picture?- choosing either will most likely disappoint the other

Realise I lose a part of myself, observing and analyzing,

If we were educated and only introduced to religion at a matured age, would we even accept the idea of a religion?

Everyone has parents. Be it biological or not. We were parented to what we are to be today. I believe there are two types of wiring that determine what we are today, tomorrow and the rest of our lives. Hard wiring is something that has already been in a way ‘implanted’ into us. Like the instinct to eat, to survive, to copulate. For different individuals I believe we are hard wired to do develop an interest in a certain field and then doing it well. This is regardless of what happens between the times you we were born and what we end up to be when we have grown up. Soft wiring on the other hand is what I believe is what affects the distortion or the guidance of one’s capabilities, traits and behaviour. It is actually what happens around child starting from the moment the child is born. Soft wiring is a passive phenomenon that continuously affects the child. For every small action, every little sound, every little feeling… It will affect the child. An abused child would likely to turn out to be an abusive father, unless the hard wiring is strong enough to off set it.

For me, I’m not a strong follower of my religion. I wondered why as I know that my dad has done almost everything possible to get me into learning, appreciating and understanding the religion. I’ve been to religious classes ever since I was 4. I’ve learnt the basic of the language, I followed my dad to religious related events every week, and I followed him when praying. Everything was going well. At least it was what my dad thought so. I don’t know how he feels now. It’s most probably disappointment. I have no clue why the interest or practice of the religion faded as I got older. Could it be that my mind have started to mature and able run things independently of what I was taught? Judgement plays an important part in whether I should or should not practice it. I believe this process of judgement is not done consciously. I never had got myself to sit down and think of whether I should or should not believe in a religion. It’s like my mind my up its own mind. It controls my action without me knowing. And only until now, around 5 years later that I realize what my mind has done. Maybe it’s not the mind. Cognitive and volitional processes took place without me acknowledging it.

I think it is interesting how we remember things. Some people remember an event, and then the minor details, while others, they remember the details, and eventually link them up to the event. It is as if these memories have their own primary keys. The primary keys are then are linked to other memories through relationship. It could be a one to one or a one to many. When a burst of ‘one to many’ relationship events are continuously linked, the bigger picture is painted. On the other hand when we remember the event, and then the details it is similar to finding a missing piece of an almost finished puzzle. There are times when we just squeeze every little ounce of brain juice to remember something. It could be a word, an event or a name. Most of the time when we attempt this, it is usually failure. Only after participating in another activity will we suddenly have this spike of intelligence or enough memory to remember back the ‘missing puzzle’. Our mind/brain works passively in the background when we are consciously engaging in an activity.

Recently, I have been looking things from the bigger picture. I see normal everyday stuff like school, eating, meeting up with friends or playing games as small insignificant things. It is hard to actually define in words how I see things. I believe there is much more to life then just living in a routine for own self-benefit. Actually everything is insignificant regardless of how big a change we make.

Why do I enjoy such luxuries in life? I have done nothing to deserve what I have today. A comfortable shelter, plenty of food, gadgets and whatnot. I guess I am blessed, and I am thankful for that.

I used to be an actor. It was where I believe the series of taking in multiple perspectives simultaneously occurred. At that time, it was hard to control feelings. It was as if I didn’t had any. My feelings would be based on my previous or current characters I have played. Yes, I did behave awkwardly. There would be times I could scold and swear and the next second laugh. Even my tone, speech, gestures were affected. I knew it wasn’t me. But it was hard to get out of the character I played. I didn’t know of anyone who faced the same problem until this year(2010) when I viewed a certain actor’s interview. It was quite a disturbing experience for me as it lasted for a round a year. It was hard both for my friends and I to understand myself. Every time an event occurs around me, it was as if I had a shelf of emotions or speech to choose from. I didn’t have any real reaction. It was superficial. It was an act. Some times I wake up in the morning asking myself, “What role shall I play? If this was a game which traits/characteristics will suite me best for me to win this game of life?”

Maybe acting this is why I always put myself in others shoes. I see things in many perspectives. Even when I am typing this now, I am already putting myself in the shoes of the readers. In a room when talking, walking or whatever, I would have already subconsciously put myself in their perspective. I guess it’s being self-conscious unconsciously without me wanting it. When I get myself to fit into their shoes, I would make sure I am a step ahead of them. Always wanted to outsmart, outplay and determine their moves. Sometimes I amuse myself by doing this. I am guilty for manipulating others at times. Putting myself in others’ shoes gives me an edge. I plan my approach to adjust their response. I am sure there are many others who do this. The key is making the victim unaware of this card being played.

At times, I feel that my body is just a capsule. A capsule for my soul. A machine. A skin. A mode of transport. A structure which I drive. What does it feel like to be outside this body. The feeling of ‘freeness’. The feeling of my real ‘body’. An abstract form.

If I don’t exist. Where will I be? State of nothingness? Abosolute zero. An extensive stretch of the fabric of time and space to the point of nothingness, the point of singularity. What does it feel like not to exist…

We always think we know ourselves best, at least I thought so. There are many assumptions about myself that I make. I believe in what people say about me which I don’t agree with. This is cause it may be a blind spot that I refuse to accept. People say I am confident. They have make myself believe that I am confident. However it is only to my disappointment that I realized myself being so low self-esteemed and lacking of confidence. I was in a sports tournament a while back. My teammates were confident in me that I would be able to win a round. However I kept tell both them, and myself that I wouldn’t be able to make it. I simply gave up. It is most definitely easy to say “Don’t give up! There is still chance!”. But to actually act on it, given the pressure and circumstances, it is definitely most difficult. I dislike the fact that I am not confident. I realize how much a burden my lack of confidence can be. I truly was a disappointment although my team mates didn’t show it – not because I fail, because I didn’t even want to convince myself I could win.

I thought I was not afraid to voice out. I thought I would be able to speak my find freely regardless of the situation or the counterpart. Again, I am wrong. I have always been very cautious of what I say, how I phrase it. I want control. Control of the message being sent across, and the control of the tone in which it is delivered. Despite this, I frequently make mistakes. I am aware people are judging me by everything I do.

In theory, decisions are easy to make. Weighing the pros and cons, and consequences before making it. I thought I learned to say ‘no’ to requests that require much of my commitment and effort but does not interest me. However, sometimes it’s hard when you’re pressured to do so. Not accepting the job would only make myself guilty and make others see me in the bad light.

It’s hard to draw the line when to say ‘No’ when help that requires much commitment and effort and does not interest oneself, is requested.

-Not easily excited, higher level of thrill, stakes, danger, adreline

-Used to want credit/attention, prefer to work behind scenes, don’t have to take care of image?

-Started letting others make decision, seeing the pros and cons to everything, theres a plus to every decision

-I don like to be in the place where its occurring

-Say out/pretend to discuss when a decision is already made, purpose? Check/vet/relationship/attachment to the decision

-Hard to juggle time/commitment. When commitment in sch, keep thinking about events neglect other aspects. Not easy, physically mentally draining.

-The feeling of being complete, peace of mind, reached goals. Then what? Wait for life to pass by? Make new goals.. die out.. try to relive past glories.. Emotions/relationships wise.. incomplete…

-When you set a goal which you thought was unreachable but made it to keep yourself improving, and in the end achieved it, it makes you feel that there is no more room for improvement, it’s the end. Its complete. Stop. Quit? This is the case if the goal is reached too early and considered as significant.

-What are school leaders really? What makes ‘him’ different from the rest? The difference is that he wants to stand out.. and end up doing all the ___ job for the school. Usually consist of mostly moving of logistics, ushering etc

Less on real leadership stuff like holding a meeting to brief/debrief, working out a plan, managing people/resources etc Basically he does what the other school population doesn’t want to do. And it’s a fact that it does take a lot of time effort and commitment to be a ‘leader’. This pulls away his focus from studies that is the primary goals of being a student. Whether is worth or not it really depends as experience and what he learnt from it cannot be reflected in documents. If everyday his attention and thoughts are on his leadership commitment stuffs and studies last on his list, does it make him a bad student/leader. Is it really possible to juggle both especially where the circumstance demands him to work as so as clean the shit of his other slacking teammates? And he does this not for himself, but for the reputation of the organization he is representing. And this happens even though he knows the rest of the team don’t give a shit about him or the organization. He just feels obligated to doing it. Yes me. The fact that I typed it as a second person instead of a first person minutes ago showed how I didn’t want to actually put it off my chest cause there is more work to be done, but it escalated as I typed..

Being able to control my facial expression instantly at will for me is rather bad thing as it eliminates the transition from one expression to another. It also doesn’t give the brain to freely control the facial expression to match the change the emotion. Furthermore, I believe that by changing facial expression, one’s emotion is able to be controlled/minimized or exaggerated. Therefore I am in a way able to control my emotion and change it at will in split seconds by the changes I make to my facial expressions. This may sound useful but when I don control it and it reacts at will; it will be very awkward when I transit from one facial expression to another quickly when my brain receives news that causes a rapid change in my emotion.

I find it difficult and painful to choose what to belief. In this day and age where information is a click away, it makes things more difficult for me as an individual to choose what I want to belief. For me, in order to choose a belief, I have to be offered a range of possibilities. The Internet offers that but to a degree that it is beyond helpful. It has become insanely tedious to filter out the bad sources from that good ones. With the Internet, rumors and false claims can be made and spread easily. Once, a man said that if you tell a lie long enough and loud enough, everyone would believe it. It is difficult to choose which side you are on when every argument on both side makes sense. Arguments after arguments, I find myself jumping sides. Most of the time, I tire myself out and gave up making a decision.

There are times whereby I realize that I have been played like puppet. I have been played by words, distorted facts, charisma or what I perceive to be logic. I admit I succumb easily to the way certain ideas are delivered, not because of its content but because of the chain of ‘logical’ steps that the presenter uses. I am not blaming those who present and convince others to believing in what they believe, as they have the right to. My ‘problem’ is they are doing it too well or in a wrong manner.

I see myself balancing on the top of the fence, waiting for that blow of wind, my leap of faith, to push me to one side. Despite me knowing that a leap of faith is what I need, deep inside I am reluctant to choose a side. This is because I know my whole perspective will change. I would be reacting defensively when being criticized and have a narrow mind. I wouldn’t be open to choices and make decisions based on what I deem is right or wrong. It is kind of like a cycle, but not really a cycle cause I’m stuck. It’s a potential cycle that deters me from choosing a side. This is as if I were to be on one side, for every argument I receive; I will jump back to the fence to have a better view.

Every time when I feel the need to be in a mode to search for the truth, I feel discouraged having known that its going to lead me to what seems to be like a goose chase. It will get me nowhere. Having known that the ‘facts’ I hear or I read off sources are definitely tweaked and opinions given by other individuals are biased, I find myself stuck again. In depth research has to be done just for me to get an overview of what is really going on. I don’t believe in what I read and hear from the news because I know what is given to us is controlled. What we know is what the higher orders want us to know. Its hard to eat more than what we are being fed. We have to source for our own food. Real food.

When I see my father lead a prayer or give blessings which passion and his heart, it really inspires me to be like him. It’s not that I don’t want to or wasn’t given the education, in fact everything went according to plan, if there was one. The plan wasn’t made to force me into having a certain belief. In no way did he force me to practice religion. I chose to start praying regularly and it was also me who chose to stop. He does respect my decision in almost what ever I do, despite him being religious and that’s what I admire about him. Even though he guides me along this journey, he gave me the freedom to choose the paths I want to take. I just haven’t had that leap of faith. I have tried several times but it’s just so hard to do so and there’s no one to blame. I believe that I’ll keep seeking for the truth and one day be as strong as my dad.

Less opinionated as used to being politically correct

In search of the Truth, the Way and the Light

It’s not as if I didn’t try.. but every time I do, I get stuck at a stage where I need that leap of faith.. When all else fails.. I give in and be as I was before.. maybe I’m just doing it wrong.

What I say I practice, what I practice and what I truly believe in are not exactly aligned. No matter what I say or what I practice, it’s as if I don’t have the power to choose what I believe in. Maybe to believe is not based on a conscious decision but one, which is done unconsciously by the mind and heart after accumulating enough information collectively.

The power to believe is beyond our control. It is outside the domain of the power to feel and will. In fact, I believe that it’s part of both the power to feel and will and our intellectual capacity. What we believe is what we have confidence in. What we have confidence in is not based on what we choose to believe but rather what our mind believes based on collective information that our brain has subconsciously processed every since we taught ourselves to learn from what we see, hear and do.

So does it really matter when we say what we believe in considering the fact that we may be lying to ourselves? In my perspective, I think they are two separate things. What we think we believe in which is made up by our mind, and what we really believe in which is made up by our hearts. The way our minds think is like that of the evolutionists/atheists where evidence come first followed by smart interpretations of it -the scientific method. The thing about out hearts is that it doesn’t really think. The mind ‘thinks’ for it but the decisions are made by faith and belief by the heart.

So I guess its justifiable to say that we don’t know what we believe in, but we do believe in something.

I guess believing in something is not a conscious decision to be made. It’s one that is made unconsciously by the mind and heart through the accumulation of information by experience or imparted knowledge. It’s not something that can be forced. It’s beyond my control to make myself believe what I want to believe in. Even by practicing, we’re only attempting to make our minds think that we believe in what we’re doing. But this doesn’t fool our hearts.

I think god gave us a mind and brain for a reason. To rationalize out things and make conscious wise, well thought out decisions. One of the biggest decisions may be to choose a religion. People are born all over the world and are usually brought up into learning to practice a certain religion. Assuming that the real religion is religion X, and that all those who worship any other beings other than that of X is to go to hell, then is it fair for everyone?

Not everyone in the world is exposed to X. They may be born in a region where they may not even be X present. How do this people identify which is the real religion? If they really do want to find out, and make their decision based on evidence and logic, they have to literally list and learn every single religion in the world and choose one. Is this possible?

If all religions disallow their followers to consider other religions, then it is a system, which disallows itself to be challenged. Thus noone would be able to carry out the ‘list all the religions in the world, study all of them, make a decision which one to believe in’ method. The system also prevents one from challenging itself as it would require one to express much doubt and disrespect for one to fully argue.

Does Knowledge Matter?

I’m starting to doubt what knowledge can really do for us. Yes it can provide us with qualifications and guarantee ourselves a good job with stable income. But how much of this knowledge can we, or even will we even make use of to address crucial problems? By knowing how corrupted and who or how operations are being run by a shadowy figure behind the surface of politics, does it really empower us to do anything? Yes if only we are able to voice out loud and clear enough. However it will be so hard to ever execute given that most systems were made to prevent any form of doubt or challenge to be held against the system.

Knowing there are people dieing in hunger in many countries around the world, how does that really empower us to help them. Yes, we can propose solutions… This, that and whatnot. But who are we to intervene in the dirty clutter and web of politics and commerce where everything is based on two questions - who benefits and how much. The only one approach may be to help directly but how much can we really do?

How can we bear to spend thousands of dollars for our own luxury and not spend a dime for those in need? As cliché as it sounds, there are people out there fighting for their lives for food and shelter and here we are taking these basic needs for granted.

I think people like myself who live comfortably in the ‘developed world’ take many things for granted. I think people fail to see how fortunate they are to be raised living places where they don’t have be always on a lookout for danger or have to suffer due to lack of food or shelter. People take things for granted.. material wise, the society they are a part of, and their physical and mental capabilities.

We take too many things for granted. One day we’ll look back and realize the diamonds we’ve lost, when we were too busy collecting stones. I just hope people will start accepting what they have and what they get with gratitude, plus it gives others a sense of self worth.

I’m disgusted with people who scam others for self-benefit, especially when it comes to people who have pure intention of making an honest living. I can’t believe that there are migrant scammers out there who have the heart to scam migrant workers thousands of dollars when all the workers want to do is feed their family and put a roof over their heads. They were given false promises like a guaranteed job and regular salary. It’s heart breaking to know that they are now in debt to loan sharks and are considered to be illegal immigrants. Their ‘employers’ imprison them by confiscating everything they have from documents to passports. The most disappointing thing is that it is happening here in Singapore.

Most of them want to break away but don’t have the financial means to. And those who have basically go back to another part of their country, earn about a dollar a day and start collecting money to repay the debts before they head for their own village.

What do I want to be? I still have yet to answer the question. As an ‘early-adult’ now, I feel that the criteria for it has been constantly changing as I grew up. It was from what I want to be in a fantasy aspect to a what I enjoy doing the most to what can I do that will give me great benefits. Along the way compromises has to be made to what I want and what I want to do. As I grew, so did my thinking. It matured with me. I used to want to be a superhero, a fighter pilot, a physical trainer, a chef, an economist and whatnot.

Right now where I am at a ‘teen-phase’, I’ve become idealistic to what I want to see and what I want the world to be, which simply is a happy, peaceful place for everyone to live in. I’m not certain if it’s really what I want to do, but I never have thought that I would have interest along this line. Maybe my mind doesn’t, but my heart does.

I guess its only human to want to help others who are in real need. How much less of a human can we become if we were to just ignore the fact that there are children out there starving and are prone to all kinds of diseases. But the fact of the matter is that we were raised to accept everything around us. One day our mind will eventually over rule the heart. It’s when we make decisions based on how we benefit and not how it compromises others rights and take away what’s not ours. Let our heart run have say and speak up to our minds.

Intellect is not something that is ‘pure’-totally factual. One way or another, somewhere somehow, it has been tweaked.

Intellect is distinguished from the power to will and feel. It is one that is engineered from the very beginning where we start to analyze and learn from the things we see around us. It helps us judge and comprehend our surroundings. Along the way, there are things that are impure that we have adapted to accept. If we were to make decisions based on this collective information that we’ve accumulated, what are the chances that the decisions we make a morally sound?

Praising others

Why is it that people are too conservative in praising others? Why not let down your ego and praise others for a change? Praising others just like showing gratitude is a form of transfer of positive energy. There is nothing to lose. Why wouldn’t you put down your ego for a second and make someone’s day? Why have we become too shy to spread the love?

By praising others, what do you show? You show acknowledgement of their effort. You show that you care.

My guess to why most people don’t praise others is that their ego is too big for them to acknowledge and accept that there is someone right in front of their very eyes who is apparently more talented or has put in more effort than he has. Why not compromise and share the love.

When I listen to covers, I don’t care if it is of the worst sound quality or sang by an average teen somewhere sometime. As long as he has the courage to do it in front of thousands of potential viewers, has put in effort and sang with his heart and soul, I see no reason why I would dislike it.

I guess it has come to a point where our own opinions are inferior to that of society. We wear what society likes us to wear; we buy what society deems as ‘in’ and we act how society wants us to. What’s the point of having opinions when you succumb easily to what others want to do, say, dress etc.

We do what we do to get accepted. No one wants to be detached or excluded from the norm. We want in. To get in, we have to behave a certain way, own certain materials or even follow certain philosophies. We only get accepted when we fine-tune ourselves to match the frequency of theirs. As more and more people join the norm, the more difficult it is for people to be who they really are and think for themselves.

The norm as it is has become one huge cluster of people following the same trend and ‘guidelines’. How is this bad? It has restricted us from being who we are and thinking out of the box. We are too used into adapting ourselves to match the latest ‘in’ thing that we do not stimulate ourselves into creating changes.

We have become mostly little chicks following the mother hen around blindly. We will eventually lose our sight to see and to make proper judgments. We won’t be able to differentiate black from white, noise from silence and medicine from poison. With this, we’ll lose our voice that we once had, all because we wanted to blend in with the norm.

Larry91 SG

tl/dr

lce SG

why u makin life so difficult with wall of texts?

just keep yr life short n sharp n u will sleep better Laughing

Life is about quality not quantity Laughing

FireIce SG

cmon. who admit to reading tt?

yes. every word.

ShadowKnight SG

cmon. who admit to reading tt?

yes. every word.

Somehow I did

ditzy SG

I scrolled all the way down, just to read FireIce’s reply.

troublemaker2005 SG

roger six-five, alpha one-zero, strawberry six-nine we are coming in.

MooKu SG

This is how many years’ worth of work ah?

FireIce SG

Somehow I did

wah. u damn fwee.

do u watch tomatoes grow too?

Loor SG

wah. u damn fwee.

do u watch tomatoes grow too?

Yar...which one is pappa and momma tomato?

cbf to read original post.

Oidffg SG

troublemaker2005 SG

headache again today travel to batam. think have to resign soon everyday go batam. be prepared, this thursday still have to go

Purple 57 SG

MrZenic SG

-'how many years work'

A couple of hours? over a few months. I only type what I'm thinking when I feel like it.

-Do I watch tomatoes grow?

Wish I could.. We take too many things for granted. Miracles and phenomenas happening all around us.. Only if we had the time to appreciate these little beauties of life.

mancha SG

headache again today travel to batam. think have to resign soon everyday go batam. be prepared, this thursday still have to go

Set up a secondary home there. Complete with wife and kids.

BadzMaro SG

LoL.. perhaps we can exchange random ponderings. Because I actually have one. Carefully titled under 'Random Thoughts' xD

troublemaker2005 SG

Set up a secondary home there. Complete with wife and kids.

that is job from their gahmen, not me. if i have the means i set up one here in spore, complete with wives and kids better. i cannot help so many poor people, a lot in other countries also want my help, i but i am only just one man i cannot help them all. people have to lear to help themselves - only then can they raise their standard of living and in life

CheeseFriesAddict SG

Im very curious, how long did u take to write all these?

lce SG

Im very curious, how long did u take to write all these?

over a few months i guess, wrote a few myself but much shorter

Kosen pang SG

Dammit . those up there seems interesting . very engaging stuff like "society that try to please" et cetera . but damn again I aint no reading all those encyclopedia man ..

try wikipedia . it is free ! no offense, cheers ! :D