Inspired by Kenneth Folk's "An Idiots Guide to Dharma
Diagnosis". My attempt to summarize some of the insights and
experiences I've gone through. (if someone has a better way of
expressing, please share :)) Also do note that there is no strictly
fixed linear way of progression - the insights/experiences can
unfold in somewhat different order for different people.
(Realization+Experience) Non-doership: No control or doership
over things, everything is spontaneously happening on its own
without effort. Does serious damage to notions of free will. When
one sees through the notion of 'self as doer', one realizes freedom
does not lie in 'free will' but lies in releasing sense of
doership/control which is a subtle aversion going against the flow
of happening, contraction, sense of self, holding. One finds joy,
freedom and release from 'let live' and 'surrendering'.
(Experience) I AM: I have a glimpse of myself as a sense of
changeless Beingness or Awareness or Witness behind everything.
(Realization) I AM: I am EXISTENCE! Doubtless certainty.
Sat-chit-ananda: beingness-consciousness-bliss. I am the ground of
Being out of which everything emerges. Self-Realization.
(Deconstruction+Experience) Impersonality: I am the one divine
life living myself in the body, no different from the life
expressing in the trees, in the other human being, or spinning the
planet. Dissolving 'self' into a state clean of ego/personal self,
not-mine sort of sensation. God-Realization.
(Experience) Intensity of luminosity: Wow, amazing, the textures
of touch, the taste of food, the colours and shapes so wonderfully
alive and intense!
(Realization/Experience) One Mind: I am this boundless space of
awareness, and all forms/thoughts/perceptions are indistinguishable
from that field, no inside/outside. Subject-Object inseparability.
All is Mind/Self/Awareness/etc.
(Experience) No Mind: Only sound. Only sight. Vividly manifest
without background or any sense of self/Self. (Not even a greater
'awareness' being inseparable from forms) This state has the same
effect as 'intensity of luminosity' except that all sense of a
perceiver is obliterated, i.e. no 'you' looking out from your body
at the 'scenery' but only brilliant scenery.
(Deconstruction+Realization+Experience) Anatta: There never
is/was a Source/Awareness/Self/Agent/Perceiver/Controller apart
from manifestation! In seeing just the seen, no seer. Not only no
self but no Self (caps) exists behind phenomena. No Subject. After
*realization* of Anatta as the Nature of experience (empty of
background subject), the experience of No-Mind becomes an
effortless natural state rather than peak experience. Then one sees
that no-mind is both wonderful and yet nothing special, as it
simply is the natural state of phenomena when released from the
extra imputation of Self/observer behind it, it is experienced as
the ordinary state of phenomena rather than the 'Wow' factor
accompanied by peak No Mind experiences prior to Anatta.
(Deconstruction+Realization+Experience) Mind-body drop: No
shapes/boundaries of body, just centerless boundless vibrating
energies! Body/self/things as an imputation dissolves through
deconstructive insight.
(Deconstruction+Realization+Experience) Groundlessness: No
persisting ground, no Here/Now, no coordinating agent, disjoint
bubble-like self-releasing thought!
(Deconstruction+Realization+Experience) Maha +A: Totality
(dependencies) walking, breathing, seamless process. Mind-body drop
transforms into Dharma Body. Six senses reconstruct into one
suchness, whole universe in an atom, all nodes in one indra's
node.
(Deconstruction+Realization+Experience) Karmic Propensities:
Karmic propensities are never hidden, totally exerted! Feel the
realness of the amazing creation of the Subject/Object fiction
manifesting as one's given experiential reality. Realize the 12
afflictive links of dependent origination where ignorance manifests
the whole mass of grasping and suffering.
(Realization+Experience) Emptiness -A: Directly tasting
thought/perceptions as clarity without background as basis, further
penetrate its nature, that very appearance which dependently
originates has never arisen, like a dream or reflection, like a
burning flame.