Yes, that's it, thanks for putting it up! Continuing from your
reply above, understand it is our attachment to self, referencing
experience to self the crux of the problem. You may direct your
questions to AEN as his insights may prove more helpful to you than
mine. Definitely more systemtical and structured!
You are right Weychin, even at superficial level I have a hard
time accepting that my action is not really wholesome. For example
if I watch a tv show, it will affect my mind for hours afterward,
but on the other hand I want to see where the story is going. Am I
supposed to withdraw from the world?
I found the text from Lotus sutra that you
mentioned http://www.buddhistdoor.com/oldweb/resources/sutras/lotus/sources/lotus2.htm
Is this it
Shariputra, there is no need to speak further. Why is this? As to
that foremost, rare, and hard-to-understand Dharma accomplished by
the Buddha–only the Buddhas and the Buddha can exhaust the Real
Mark of all Dharmas, that is to say, with regard to all Dharmas:
the suchness of the marks, the suchness of the nature,
the suchness of the substance, the suchness of the power, the
suchness of the function, the suchness of the causes, the suchness
of the conditions, the suchness of the effects, and suchness of the
retributions, and the suchness of the ultimate equality from
beginning to end.”