Dear TS
sorry to hear your predicament. It is basically living a life
full of unease and uncertainties......dunno when they will pop
out.....where you will see them.
There is not much I can help you as your gift may come from
various reasons such as along your ancestral lines there were some
who were gifted like you and it will be passed through the lines.
2nd, during your maturity stage, your Tian Ling Gai have not been
fully formed/closed, thereby giving you this gift like how some
young kids can see. Last but not the least, maybe something, be it
a deity or a spirit had opend for you....be it a duty or a
punishment....i dunno
It is good for you to appreciate their manifestation by
colours.....not many can do that. Try to avoid the reddish/red
ones.....they have a lot of angst when they expired.....we really
had a hard time subduing them and it takes even a longer time to
assuage their anger.
Finally, my last advice after seeing ppl like you (or special
abilities get mess up), NEVER GIVE your Ba Zi to anyone who claims
he can help you. A well trained bastard can see your lot in this
life and do ATM transfer between you and him
Welcome to our world...