Dear friends, students, and fellow
meditators,
By the time you read this letter, I will have begun the long
retreat that I announced last year. As you may know, I have felt a
very strong connection with the tradition of retreat since I was a
young boy growing up in the Himalayas. Even though I didn't really
know how to meditate, I would often run away from home to a cave
nearby, where I would sit quietly and chant the mantra "om mani
peme hung" over and over again in my mind. My love of the mountains
and the simple life of a wandering meditator called to me even
then.
It wasn't until I was in my early teens that I got my first
chance to do a formal retreat. Until that time, I lived at Nagi
Gompa, a small hermitage on the outskirts of Kathmandu. It was
there that my father, Tulku Urgyen Rinpoche, first taught me how to
meditate. After training with him for a number of years, I heard
that a traditional three-year retreat was scheduled to begin at
Sherab Ling, Kenting Tai Situ Rinpoche's monastery in India.
Though I was still only eleven years old, I begged my father to
let me go. He was happy to see my enthusiasm, since he himself had
stayed in retreat for more than twenty years over the course of his
life. When we talked about the idea of me going into a strict,
traditional retreat, he told me about the great yogi Milarepa and
how important his example has been to generations of Tibetan
Buddhist meditators.
Milarepa's early life was filled with misery and hardship.
Despite all the bad karma he created as a young man, he eventually
overcame his dark past and attained complete enlightenment while
living in isolated caves deep in the mountains. Once he was
enlightened, Milarepa thought that there was no longer any need for
him to stay in the mountains. He made up his mind to go down to
more populated areas where he could directly help alleviate the
suffering of others. One night, not too long after he decided to
depart, Milarepa had a dream about his teacher Marpa. In the dream,
Marpa encouraged him to stay in retreat, telling him that through
his example he would touch the lives of countless people.
After telling me about Milarepa's remarkable life, my father
said, "Marpa's prophesy came to pass. Even though Milarepa spent
most of his life living in remote caves, millions of people have
been inspired by his example over the centuries. By demonstrating
the importance of practicing in retreat, he influenced the entire
tradition of Tibetan Buddhism. Thousands and thousands of
meditators have manifested the qualities of enlightenment because
of his dedication."
A few years later, during my first three-year retreat, I had the
good fortune to study with another great master, Saljey Rinpoche.
In the middle of the third year, I and a few of my fellow
retreatants approached Rinpoche to ask his advice. We had derived
tremendous benefit from the retreat and asked him how we could help
uphold this precious lineage. "Practice!" Saljey Rinpoche
responded, "I've been in retreat almost half my life. This is a
genuine way to help others. If you want to preserve the lineage,
transform your minds. You won't find the true lineage anywhere
else."
The teachings and example of both my father and Saljey Rinpoche
deeply inspired me. This inspiration, coupled with my own natural
desire to practice in retreat, has been a guiding light throughout
my life.
When my first formal retreat ended, Saljey Rinpoche passed away
and Tai Situ Rinpoche asked me to take his place as retreat master.
I accepted my new role and have now been leading retreats and
teaching meditation for twenty years. In particular, the last ten
years I have spent a great deal of time teaching around the world.
I've been to more than thirty countries, sharing my experience of
overcoming the panic attacks I experienced as a child and passing
on the teachings that my masters entrusted to me. Over the years,
I've come to see the truth of the words of my father and Saljey
Rinpoche. As they both taught me, the experience gained in retreat
can be a powerful tool in helping others.
In my early years, I trained in a number of different ways. The
time I spent with my father involved rigorous meditation training,
but I was not in strict retreat, in the sense that I met other
people and could come and go freely. My three-year retreat at
Sherab Ling Monastery, on the other hand, was held in complete
isolation. A small group of us lived in an enclosed compound and
didn't have any contact with the outside world until the retreat
ended. These are two forms of practice, but they are not the only
ways. As demonstrated by the great yogi Milarepa, there is also a
tradition of wandering from place to place, staying in remote caves
and sacred sites with no plans or fixed agenda, just an unswerving
commitment to the path of awakening. This is the type of retreat
that I will be practicing over the coming years.
This tradition isn't very common these days. My third main
teacher, the great Dzogchen yogi Nyoshul Khen Rinpoche, was one of
the few recent masters to practice in this way. Khen Rinpoche
practiced in closed retreats when he was younger, but later he took
up the life of a wandering yogi. He completely dropped his normal
life and activities. Nobody knew where he was or what he was doing.
He spent time meditating in isolated caves and other places where
the great masters of times past, such as Milarepa and Longchenpa
practiced, and at one point he even lived among the Hindu sadhus of
India. His story is a perfect example of a modern, carefree
yogi.
More recently, Tai Situ Rinpoche, the last of my four main
teachers, talked about meditating in mountain retreats during a
teaching he gave in 2009. Over four months, Rinpoche passed on the
lineage of an important meditation text called The Ocean of the
Definitive Meaning. This is one of the main instruction manuals
used by meditators in the Kagyu lineage. I mention my teachers here
because their wisdom and compassion has nurtured my desire to make
retreat a focal point of my life. My father and Saljey Rinpoche
encouraged and supported my first experiences in retreat, while
Nyoshul Khen Rinpoche and Tai Situ Rinpoche inspired me to embark
on the path of a wandering yogi. Like a tiny firefly in the midst
of the sun's radiance, I can never hope to compare to my precious
teachers, but without their example and inspiration, I would not
have followed this path.
You might think that while I'm on retreat we won't be able to
stay connected to each other. Of course, we won't be able to see
each other for a few years, but don't forget that our connection is
through the Dharma. It isn't simply seeing our teachers, or even
hearing them, that creates a spiritual bond. It's when we take the
teachings we've received and bring them into our own experience
that an unshakeable connection is formed. The more we practice, the
stronger the bond with our teacher becomes.
Three of my four teachers have long since passed away. At times,
I remember what it was like being with them and hearing them teach.
I remember how joyful and light they were, and how they carried
themselves with such dignity and freedom. These memories make me a
little sad, but when I remember what they taught me and let their
wisdom fill my being, I can feel their presence anywhere and
anytime. So while you and I may be apart physically over the next
few years, through our practice we will always be together.
I feel a great sense of warmth and love when I think of all of
you, like we're one big family. So don't worry, I'm not having a
mid-life crisis. I'm not going on retreat because I'm sick of
traveling, or sick of teaching students. In fact, it's just the
opposite. During this time our practice will bring us closer.
There are times in our lives when we focus on learning and
study, and others where we take what we've learned and bring it
deeply into our experience. These are processes that each of us
goes through individually, but having the support of a community
can be a great help as we follow the path. It has been wonderful to
see how many of you have come together in recent years to help form
and shape our growing community. Though I've helped support the
community through my teachings, the community itself is yours. It
is there to support you on the path of awakening, and it will be
your commitment and support that will allow for the flourishing of
the community in years to come. Receiving support and guidance from
the community, and giving back in whatever way we can, is an
integral part of the journey.
To help you continue along the path, I've prepared many
teachings over the past few years that will be delivered by my
emanations. These emanations can appear magically almost anywhere
and will teach you just what you need to deepen your practice. What
am I talking about? Modern technology, of course! We recorded
hundreds of hours of teachings on a whole range of topics, and
these teachings will be made available over the coming years. Some
will be used for online courses and seminars, others will be shown
at Tergar centers and groups, and some will be freely available
online. In some ways, my video emanations are better than the real
me. You won't have to feed them or put them up in a hotel. They
will wait patiently until you're ready for them. And most
importantly, they won't feel bad if you get bored and turn them
off!
Don't mistakenly think that your DVD player will be your new
root guru. Recorded teachings can never take the place of a direct
transmission from teacher to student. What I'm trying to say is
that there will still be plenty of opportunities to study and
practice, especially for those of you who are following the Joy of
Living and Path of Liberation programs. There are also other
wonderful lamas to study with, including His Holiness Karmapa,
Orgyen Trinley Dorje, and my teacher Tai Situ Rinpoche. My brother,
Tsoknyi Rinpoche, is also an excellent teacher and has agreed to
guide the Tergar community while I'm away. Finally, we have our own
Tergar lamas and instructors who will lead retreats and workshops
all over the world. In fact, there will be so much happening, you
may not even notice I'm gone!
In parting, I would like to give you one small piece of advice
to keep in your heart. You may have heard me say this before, but
it is the key point of the entire path, so it bears repeating: All
that we are looking for in life — all the happiness, contentment,
and peace of mind — is right here in the present moment. Our very
own awareness is itself fundamentally pure and good. The only
problem is that we get so caught up in the ups and downs of life
that we don't take the time to pause and notice what we already
have.
Don't forget to make space in your life to recognize the
richness of your basic nature, to see the purity of your being and
let its innate qualities of love, compassion, and wisdom naturally
emerge. Nurture this recognition as you would a small seedling.
Allow it to grow and flourish.
Many of you have generously asked how you can help support my
retreat. My answer is simple: Keep this teaching at the heart of
your practice. Wherever you are and whatever you are doing, pause
from time to time and relax your mind. You don't have to change
anything about your experience. You can let thoughts and feelings
come and go freely, and leave your senses wide open. Make friends
with your experience and see if you can notice the spacious
awareness that is with you all the time. Everything you ever wanted
is right here in this present moment of awareness.
I will keep you in my heart and in my prayers.
Yours in the Dharma,
Yongey Mingyur Rinpoche