There is no certainty in becoming and if one is certain - then
know this that it has conditions fulfilled or yet to be
fulfilled. It is goal-oriented. If that is the case, one is already
no longer herenow but psychologically in the future. What
is, is missed or
an adulterated expereince. Hence the necessity to become comes into
play.
If one is an end unto oneself now the need to become is no
longer there - one simply allows whatever that comes or manifests
to be. If one is
angry one is totally in it, if one is loving one is totally in it.
It is a peak, it is intense but once it is over, one is no longer
looking for the same experience. Also, one remains choiceless and
yet aware of the everchanging ... Also, there is no rite/wrong,
hot/cold/nite/day .... duality is transcended. Where thinking is
duality is!
Lest it is misconstrued, my meaning is that of being ... eg
being kind, being jealous, being .... however, one has to
understand that existence knows no certainty and life is never
certain. When one expereines each moment in and of itself as it is
one is no longer being certain and yet one is amenable to the
certainty of
change. Only change is certain. Eg the chair in one's room
is the same after 5 days of unuse. However, can one assume that
one's spouse is the same? If one assumes that - then that person is
no longer perceived or partaken of as a living, breathing and
evolving ... but as an entity to be used and put aside and used
again. When one can relate that suffices but relationship is
different. Relationship is a thing. But people cannot deal
with uncertainty hence the want, the need to make it into a
relationship. Relating is difficult cos one is one the inside
matters!
Though I digressed , it was merely to exemplify and simplify
wherever possible.
Hi Fugazzi,
I do not want to dwell into philosophy but just to point out the
differences between Reality, Truth and Existence. Reality is
ontological (metaphysics), Truth is proportional (logic and reason)
and existence is phenomenological (human life as they are
lived). AEN’s narration is strictly ontological while
Buddhism is more phenomenological.
This thread is AEN's diary of his direct experience of
'beingness' that is non-conceptual. He is narrating this
particular experience of ‘certainty of being’ that resulted from
his realization of “I AM”. Although the experience is more
Advaita Vedanta than Buddhism, it is still an important phase of a
sincere practitioner during his spiritual journey.
As Simpo pointed out, it will be difficult to comment
meaningfully if you do not share the same experience and direct
realization. Buddha is clear about this experience and has
warned not to mistake a ‘state of experience’ as ultimate and
reifies ‘a transcendent experience’ into an ‘Absolute Reality’. The
doctrines of anatta and emptiness are the antidote to relinquish
practitioners from the ultimate attachment of “I AM”.