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Haven't been here for a while,
thought I will just type a little.
As a father, sometimes we really
encounter dilemmas when we teach our children. We will tell them,
work hard, study hard, if you do not study hard you will become
like me. Yet the mother's gentleness, despite her constant
bickering with the dad, always seem to reveal the same logic. Work
hard son, study hard, you are all our hopes.
Sometimes, growing up pains is as
such. You have to first become a father yourself, or a mother
yourself, in order to vaguely understand why a few thousand year
logic still stays relevant, despite all the latest marital systems
that are popping out like linux distros.
Sure, it is complicated sounds like
the most popular Marital Status ever since Friendster started it
and trademarked it several years ago.
I guess where I am coming from, is
that people need options, and when what used to be an ancient
Oriental no-choice situation of either married or unmarried, and
everything else is kept as a hush hush, nowadays as a culture
embracing the West, as long as it works, it is good.
I am still figuring out how to
install my first software driver after installing OpenSuse linux
version 11.4. 4 years away from the open-source environment, I am
amazed that linux nowadays look as good as Windows, if not better.
And everything is free.
Just like Buddhism is, compared to
some other Creator religions that require you to donate 10% of your
salary.
Still, back to basics, while I was
doing my quiet time, aka vipassanna meditation yesterday, I
questioned in tranquility to the point of the validity of precepts.
I do not doubt that refuge in the Triple Gems is important, so are
the five precepts.
However, I drilled in further to
what the five precepts entail, and let us flag out sexual
misconduct since it is where my topic originated off with. Without
a guru, without staying within a sangha on an extended basis, there
is only one outcome.
A very basic principle, known as I
undertake the precept to abstain from sexual misconduct, can become
a packet of popcorns which you can keep munching on when you watch
others' relationships acted out in front of you as if a melodrama,
and me too, I am acting out my life for you to wish that I would
just shuddup, because what is supposedly a simple 1+1=2 in a
primary textbook, is now “It is complicated” because I dug it up
from under the carpet.
Today I was at the Ang Mo Kio
southbound platform and I watched the Thai girl (I thought was a
boy) fall head forward onto the platform. He/ She saw the incoming
train, picked up herself and rushed underneath the platform for
shelter. Still, the train did not stop in time. I thought she died.
With all the crowd screaming, even if she did not die, I would.
How could it be possible that she
fell forward in such a manner as if she was doing a dive from a
swimming pool? Looks like she was dizzy or somehow.
It is complicated. Really. Sometimes
I really cannot bear to watch.
I broke down after I walked out of
the train station without taking my train, called my house and
asked somebody to bring me home, then as I sat by the pavement with
people watching me as if a beggar.. I just thought the loveliest
sight happened when two familiar faces appeared to pick me up with
the Civil Defence vehicles roaring on the other side of the
road.
Sorry for the zen-ish rants... to
me, this is just like what the meaningless sutras seem to suggest,
we cross people over, yet essentially nobody gets crossed over.
Thank Guan yin ma nobody got killed
today on the tracks. I hope they did something to fix back the
legs. It's hard to believe in a Creator these days who have u made
for his fun, but as I learnt from experience, there are good and
bad ways of interpreting a religion.
I just hope to say that like the
Vilamakirti sutra taught, how should a Kiasee singaporean react
when terrified by fear of life? To which there is always a better
explanation than me being Your toy. I am sorry, I saw my doctor and
ate my tranquilizer, but I want to do something MEANINGFUL before I
sleep.
Manjusri: To what should one resort when terrified by fear of
life?
Vimalakirti: Manjusri, a bodhisattva who is terrified by fear of
life should resort to the magnanimity of the Buddha.
Manjusri: Where should he who wishes to resort to the
magnanimity of the Buddha take his stand?
Vimalakirti: He should stand in equanimity toward all living
beings.
Manjusri: Where should he who wishes to stand in equanimity
toward all living beings take his stand?
Vimalakirti: He should live for the liberation of all living
beings.
Manjusri: What should he who wishes to liberate all living
beings do?
Vimalakirti: He should liberate them from their passions.
Manjusri: How should he who wishes to eliminate passions apply
himself?
Vimalakirti: He should apply himself appropriately.
so on..
http://www2.kenyon.edu/Depts/Religion/Fac/Adler/Reln260/Vimalakirti.htm