True Person
Edited Dharma Talk
by
Elihu Genmyo Smith
Cold, snowy day; perfect for
January sesshin. Rohatsu sesshin in December, which commemorates
the enlightenment of Shakyamuni Buddha, is often a cold sesshin,
with long dark nights of sitting and ongoing practice effort. We
practice in a zendo where we sense the elements. This sesshin in
January is often connected with Master Lin Chi. Even colder, more
snowy time of year in Illinois, when practice, being present, is
supported by the elements. Of course, practice is supported in warm
weather too. Nevertheless, body-mind habits and attachments which
arise are pushed, are exposed, by the snowy cold. Body-mind habits
are just body-mind habits. Unfortunately, we miss this life when
caught in body-mind habits, when holding and reacting to them. This
is the practice opportunity of the manifested koan of our
life.
“The Master Lin Chi took the high seat in the hall. He said ‘On
your lump of red flesh is a True Person of No Rank who is always
going in and out of the face of every one of you. Those who have
not yet proved him, look, look!’ Then a monk came forward and asked
‘What about the True Person of No Rank?’ The Master got down from
his seat, seized the monk and said ‘Speak! Speak!’ The monk
faltered. Shoving him away, the Master said, ‘The True Person
With-out Rank, what kind of shit-wiping stick is he?’ Then he
returned to his quarters.”
This is from the Lin Chi Lu (Rinzai Roku in Japanese), the record
of Master Lin Chi, who died in 866 C.E., in his 50’s. Lin Chi was
addressing monks so he says “true man of no rank.” Nevertheless,
“True Person” is not limited to “man,” not limited to “woman,” so
Lin Chi says True Man, I say True Person. True person of no rank on
this lump of red flesh is exactly this lump here, “just this face,”
each of us, each of you. Going in and out of face, of whole body,
is this functioning True Person, your functioning right now!
Don’t be distracted by the phrase “no rank.” In one sense, no rank
means no status. If we think of T’ang dynasty Chinese society,
where everyone had some status, whether high or low, not having any
status is very unusual. Even more, no rank means no boundaries, not
bound by any particular status, by rules of status society, by
ideas and concepts. So, no rank is this person of
emancipation.
Look at all the ranks that you believe and hold! We may even turn
Lin Chi’s phrase into some idea, “practice is finding this no-rank,
which is different from rank.” No! Dogen Zenji comments “What is
the True Person of Rank?” No problem with rank. One of you is a
doctor, one an engineer, a professor, a student, various ranks. If
we interpret no rank as something other than this right here now,
then we do not see no rank. Being exactly the rank we are is
rankless, statusless; though it is so, rankless rank or statusless
status, are stinky words. Sometimes we lead people around the
zendo, sometimes we are led around the zendo. This true person of
no rank is freely any rank; we are this rankless rank right now.
Lin Chi reveals this True Person for each of us right now.
Unfortunately, there are all sorts of ways that we are not willing
to be as we are. “He can’t say that to me.” “She can’t do that to
me, after all I’m her father, mother, sister, etc.” All the rank
ranks. “Well, I don’t do that, that’s someone else’s to do.” My
son, a 12 year-old, is willing to walk the dog but not willing to
pick up the dog shit. Even with a plastic bag, he says “Phew, I
don’t do that.” Lots of ranks that we hold to, ranks that blind us
right-here-now; even rankless blinds. We don’t want to be, to see,
to respond. Unfortunately, when we spin off, imagine it the way we
want, then we never see, never are, this right-here-now, this very
moment. This is what Master Lin Chi is saying. Explaining it
conceptually, this functioning of, hearing (reading) this, always
going in and out of this body, is every one of you. Not something
else. Do not think there is some “true person” coming in and out
other than this; that is nonsense. This is exactly your
functioning! Not a hairsbreadth of separation! And yet, if we do
not see this, live this, then it is not so. Then even a
hairsbreadth of separation blinds us. Truly, we can be every rank,
every position, and yet, we hold back. What is the boundary of
ranks in your life, what are the rank bounds right now? Where is
this true person? See, this is what the monk is talking
about.
What is the problem? Master Lin Chi says, “Bring to rest the
thoughts of the ceaselessly seeking mind, allow the mind to rest.”
Allow this open awareness. The constant spinning mind is trying to
create life in a way that will be pleasant, that will make us feel
safe, secure, feel good. It is grabbing on to every emotion-thought
that arises. So, allow thought, emotion, feeling, to arise and
pass, be this open awareness that you are and “you will not differ
from the ancestor Buddha. Do you want to know the ancestor Buddha?”
Lin Chi says. “He is none other than you who stands before me
listening to my discourse.” In many Chinese and Japanese
monasteries the tradition is to stand while the discourse was being
given by the Master in a high seat. All of you listening are none
other than the ancestor Buddha! (Hits stick on floor.) That is what
he is talking about, this true person of no rank right now
listening. “Since you students lack faith in yourself you run
around seeking something outside;” Or seeking something inside.
“Even if through your seeking you find something, that something
will be nothing more than elaborate descriptions and written words.
In the end you will fail to gain the Mind of the living ancestor.
Make no mistake, worthy Ch’an practitioners, if you don’t meet it
here now, you’ll go on transmigrating through the three realms for
myriads of kalpas and thousands of lives, and, held in the clutch
of agreeable circumstances, be born in the womb of an ass or a
cow.” Very direct and descriptive language.
So, what is going on when this monk comes forward, “What about this
true person of no rank?” Whatever the state of the monk, he is
making the effort to clarify! “The Master got down from his seat,
seized the monk and said, ‘Speak! Speak!’ The monk faltered.
Shoving him away, the Master said ‘The true man without rank, what
kind of shit-wiping stick is he!’”
Is a shit-wiping stick different from the true person of no rank?
Do not be fooled! My teacher Soen Nakagawa Roshi said “I, too, am
such a shit-wiping stick fellow, but also, this true man of no
rank.” This true person is exactly our life. Not anywhere else, not
something other than the exact life we are now. It transcends life,
death, good, bad, delusion, enlightenment. Even shit-wiping stick
and true person, it is NOT that and yet not anything else; this is
exactly who we are. Lin chi says it right here. “This true man
without rank, what kind of shit-wiping stick is he!” This is not a
question. Look! What kind of shit-wiping stick he is! Only if we
are not so, not clear, then this is not enough. It is our practice
opportunity to be the shit-wiping stick fellow, though it may be
hard or painful to be so in the midst of body-mind habits and
attachments.
What is this ceaselessly seeking mind? Look! Only it gets in the
way of this true person functioning. Bringing this ceaseless
seeking to rest is allowing thoughts to come and go freely; then
they are at rest. And “you’ll not differ from the ancestor Buddha.”
When the Second Ancestor requests, “My mind is not at rest, please
put it at rest,” Bodhidharma responds “Bring me this restless
mind.” Finally, the Second Ancestor sees for himself the
ungraspableness of this seeking, “nowhere to be found;” realizing
this, therefore, ceaseless seeking is at rest.
Right now here is not other than this true person that we call
ancestor Buddha. It’s none other than you who are listening right
now; breathing, sitting; even saying that we make it into
something. So Lin Chi says “We don’t have any Buddhas here. If you
meet the Buddha, kill the Buddha. If you meet the Ancestors, kill
the Ancestors.” If you seek for Buddha, Buddha is merely a name. It
is exactly our life, anything else sought is only a name, is extra,
is an obstacle, a hindrance.
Have faith in this awareness that you are, this functioning. Joko
uses the expression “create a shift from this spinning world we’ve
got in our heads to right-here-now.” Yesterday I used the
expression “a gap between the world that we are and the world we
are caught up in and live in.” Not because there is a gap; and yet
we create a gap with this ceaselessly seeking inside and out. So,
we must look, we must prove, testify for our self. “Those who have
not yet proved (proved means testify, know) Look! Look!” Look right
now! This is exactly what we are doing here in sesshin; in this
cold morning. It is nothing but this going and coming on this lump
of red flesh. This going and coming is nothing but this lump of red
flesh functioning, this true person.
This true person and our life are not two different things, yet not
the same. Otherwise, we get satisfied with what is not
satisfactory. And we can see the unsatisfactory right away when we
are spinning off, where we falter as the monk does, where we
“cloud.” Master Lin Chi speaks this way, as all teachers do,
encouraging us. “Rest this ceaselessly seeking mind.” Be this
awareness functioning. Zazen is this open awareness functioning.
Our practice effort allows this gap to disappear, allows us to
taste and testify as this true person that is sitting right
here.
“Followers of the Way,” says Master Lin Chi, “as I see it we are
not different from Shakyamuni the Buddha. What do we lack of our
manifold activities today?” You don’t have to remember any of
Master Lin Chi’s words or anyone else’s words. Just take them like
the monk took them, to encourage practice, to remind you of who and
what you are. It doesn’t matter what rank, doesn’t make us better
or worse.
Zazen is manifesting who and what you are, this true person
functioning. Right-here-now, sitting, standing up, walking. Being
so, then this gap, this spinning off, of itself is gone. We make
the choice, the effort, and of itself, moment by moment, this is
taken care of. When it is time to testify, we testify. This endless
functioning is exactly our life, whether we know it or not. It is
not a matter of words. Faith in words, in ideas, in thoughts and
what we get from others, from outside, or even from so-called
inside, is what ails us. “Lack of faith in yourself” is what ails
you. So, please allow your practice to practice you, be lived by
your life, allow zazen to zazen. Then sitting and standing, you are
exactly this true person, nothing but this true
person.
© 2005 Elihu Genmyo Smith