Beginners to Buddhism have a hard time; at least for some or
most of them.
There are many metaphors, similes, figuratives and analogies in
the Buddhist teachings, namely sutras for example; so many that not
all can tell exactly which are real statistics and which are just
figurative figures and fictional analogies to illustrate a certain
point.
For example:
The most commonly known quote for all or most Buddhists is
"I shall not attain Buddhahood until all beings are liberated
from hell" (it refers broadly to all that are suffering in the 3
evil realms or those who are not yet free from countless cycles of
birth and death).
Now, can hell really be literally empty? I don't
know..
Cos no being with consciousness can escape from being attached
to the notion of 'self'. As a result, all sentient beings, think,
feel and act in accordance to that self-projected ego, to seek ways
to satisfy 'it' and hence have to go through samsaric life and
death for all their good and bad deeds.
At a certain point in time, some may gain enough
spiritual wisdom to be free totally after a few rebirths or during
their present lifetime. But how is this compared to other countless
beings in 3 evil realms or the entire samasaric cycles experienced
by all sentient beings in the ten directions?
Even if at a certain point in time all beings in a certain hell
(say Avici hell) is delivered totally by any Bodhisattva
or Buddha, many countless 'new' ones will continue be born there to
so-called fill in the places that very instant. This is due to
karmic forces that no one can prevent or stop.
So is Kstigarbha Bodhisattva's vow a mere metaphor or a
figurative to encourage or comfort all of us?
If it is just a metaphor or figurative to encourage, comfort or
to warn, then what hope can I have?
It's just like saying 'son, I will not rest till I can see
that you know how to really take good care of yourself and at
the same time love and care for others like I do for you.'
But your parents are not immortals, they will die, or they will
grow sick and not being able to communicate to you, sometimes
totally. What if they die or become totally uncommunicative due to
sickness before you really become what they have always hope for
you to become?
So are your parents making empty promises? Was it just a
lecture, a warning, a form of encouragement or reassurance?
The teaching is there, waiting for you to practise. But yet, you
are now alone in facing all sorts of temptations and adversity. If
you are strong and steadfast in following the teaching, you will
survive and grow up to be a useful person. If not, too bad...God
(or Buddha) knows what will happen to you...
Are the vows of Bodhisattvas or Buddhas like a rope, a boat or a
ray of light for those who can swim or climb? To me, those who are
not as strong in mind and heart are like those with no legs, but
hands or vice versa. I don't think anyone can climb a mountain or
swim with just two legs or two hands.
Many times, I feel very confused and helpless about the
whole thing as I try to understand it using the
'non-attachment' concept taught in the Diamond sutra: There is no
sentient being to save, there is no Bodhisattva to save them.
Something like that.
So during those days I would choose to view the Bodhisattva's
vows in a literal way: that one day, all sentient beings in any
form of suffering will be helped by Ksitigarbha Bodhisattva and
they shall never have to suffer again. That helps me to feel at
peace, that helps me to feel loved and cared for. Cos before anyone
really succeeds in attaining non-attachment or anatta, they still
are attached to the need for love and concern from others, though
in different degrees, in different aspects in life.
Try it, dear friends who are still struggling in
the cultivation of non-attachment and anatta as taught in
the Diamond sutra. Believe in the compassionate vows of Ksitigarbha
Bodhisattva, Amitabha Buddha or any Bodhisattva LITERALLY.
Believe that they are always with you, even if you have not
attained non-attachment. And even if at present or throughout your
whole life, you still find yourself caring more about yourself
than others. As long as you still believe in, somewhere deep
inside you, that ultimately, the Law of Cause and Effect spoken
by all Buddhas is true, without any deliberate
embellishment or distortion, you will one day see the Truth for
yourself in time to come.
Don't hurry, don't panic. But neither should you be lazy. If you
are lazy, you will still see the Truth one day, only much, much
longer than those who work hard at it, in following Buddha's
teachings.
I feel and share your pain, those who are lazy. I feel and share
your pain, those who think they are slow. I feel and share your
pain, those who still can't achieve non-attachment on their last
breaths.
Your life will never have been lived in vain, if you have heard
of the name of any Bodhisattva or Buddha, or simply
just Namo Buddhaya. (南摩佛) Heard, as in just hearing with
your ear, no belief at all.
We will meet some day, cos I have vowed to a Bodhisattva
disciple of all Buddhas, be it past, present, about to come, or yet
to come.
Till then, I wholeheartedly wish you all the best in your
cultivation. May you succeed in freeing yourself from the bondages
of greed, anger/hatred and unwholesome views. May you succeed in
becoming a fully-enlightened Buddha.
Amituofo! :)