Hi guys, this is GrimNexus's Self-Inquiry chat log with me a few
days ago, I think it is quite helpful.. and I would request that
readers, please do not rush through the conversation, but
contemplate every line as if you do not know what is coming next in
the conversation.
Self-inquiry can bring about a sudden awakening/glimpse of our true
nature, though as GrimNexus says himself it is not the same as Full
Enlightenment (Annutara samyak sambodhi).
GrimNexus is an sgForummer, and he will be happy to answer, discuss
or clarify anything, any doubts and any questions regarding this
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GrimNexus says: aight so let's try
this
GrimNexus says: it's all
good
An Eternal Now says: ok
GrimNexus says: ok first off
GrimNexus says: difference between
"I" & "My"
GrimNexus says: whatever falls in
the catagory of "My" is not who "I" really am
An Eternal Now says: icic
GrimNexus says: if you lose your
shoes, are you still you?
GrimNexus says: yes or no?
An Eternal Now says: yea
GrimNexus says: if you lose your
arm, are you still you?
An Eternal Now says: yes
GrimNexus says: if you're thinking
about going to the store, but then, all of a sudden, someone comes
up behind you and scares you, and you lose that thought,
GrimNexus says: are you still
you?
An Eternal Now says: yes
GrimNexus says: if you're feeling
good, and then all of a sudden you get news that your favorite pet
dies and you lose your happiness, are you still you?
An Eternal Now says: yes
GrimNexus says: ok
GrimNexus says: so you see the
trend going on here?
An Eternal Now says: yeah
GrimNexus says: anything that
falls in the catagory of My is not who you really are ( I )
GrimNexus says: so
GrimNexus says: My shoes, my body,
my emotions, my thoughts
GrimNexus says: the same even goes
for My Self
GrimNexus says: so who is the I
that even My Self belongs to?
An Eternal Now says: hmm
An Eternal Now says: dont
know
An Eternal Now says: lol
GrimNexus says: but, that's ok,
because now we've narrowed it down
GrimNexus says: to what we're
pointing at
GrimNexus says: anything that
falls in the catagory of My is not who I really am
An Eternal Now says: icic
GrimNexus says: ok
GrimNexus says: so now
GrimNexus says: what word do you
like the best that represents Existence ?
An Eternal Now says: being?
GrimNexus says: Existence,
Everything, Being
GrimNexus says: ok
GrimNexus says: what word do you
like the best that represents Non-Existence ?
An Eternal Now says: void?
GrimNexus says: ok
GrimNexus says: so,
GrimNexus says: imagine Being
then
GrimNexus says: Stuff, Everything,
Existence, There,
GrimNexus says: etc
An Eternal Now says: ok
GrimNexus says: now, imagine
Void,
GrimNexus says: Non-Existence,
No-Stuff, Nothing, Non-Existence Not-there
GrimNexus says: etc
An Eternal Now says: ok
GrimNexus says: ok, so what is
Neither of those?
GrimNexus says: what is
GrimNexus says: Neither
GrimNexus says: ?
An Eternal Now says: dont know..
unthinkable?
GrimNexus says: ok so you notice
how when you're trying to think of it
GrimNexus says: yes
GrimNexus says: how your mind was
all
GrimNexus says: It's everything,
it's nothing, it's ..
GrimNexus says: then it goes off
in some weird direction then halts
An Eternal Now says: oic..
GrimNexus says: you notice
that?
An Eternal Now says: yeah
GrimNexus says: ok, so RIGHT AFTER
IT HALTED
GrimNexus says: THAT"S
GrimNexus says: what Neither
is
GrimNexus says: Infinity, Now,
etc
GrimNexus says: but obviously,
noticing that your mind halted
GrimNexus says: starts it up
agian
GrimNexus says:
An Eternal Now says: oic..
GrimNexus says: that's who you
really are
GrimNexus says: I
GrimNexus says: but there's still
so much tendencies covering it
An Eternal Now says: icic..
GrimNexus says: ok, what you
noticed
GrimNexus says: or, more
accuratly
GrimNexus says: what was
noticed
GrimNexus says: look around
GrimNexus says: that's what
everything is
GrimNexus says: that's who I
am,
GrimNexus says: that's who
Thusness is
GrimNexus says: (but also notice
that from the looking that this is being filtered through, we still
need to remove those)
GrimNexus says: but insight is not
hindered
An Eternal Now says: icic..
GrimNexus says: fun eh?
GrimNexus says: btw, this isn't
the whole thing
GrimNexus says: because the next
question that forms is this