Icic...
Regarding effort and mindfulness... Thusness and us had some
discussion about this as well... the conversation is v long and I
only copy a small part here..
(10:48 PM) Thusness: now...not to understand estimate all words we
use
(10:48 PM) Thusness: when we say 'sound', 'taste'...
(10:48 PM) Thusness: immediately these words and symbols carry
meanings
(10:49 PM) Thusness: they chain and link
(10:49 PM) Thusness: they have imprints
(10:49 PM) Thusness: therefore insight meditation is taught
(10:49 PM) ~Ukulele~:
(10:49 PM) Thusness: many underestimated the power of these
'bonds'
(10:49 PM) Thusness: prevent one from seeing...
(10:49 PM) Thusness: there is no true seeing...
(10:49 PM) Me: icic..
(10:50 PM) Thusness: what are sensations?
(10:50 PM) Thusness: it is a word that carries certain
meaning
(10:50 PM) Thusness: when we say 'taste' is a form of
sensation...
(10:51 PM) Thusness: immediately we are bonded though we think we
know what we are talking about.
(10:51 PM) Thusness: we only think...
(10:51 PM) Thusness: we do not know...
(10:51 PM) Thusness: we do not know a lot of things
(10:51 PM) Thusness: when we practice, we are not practicing to
attain the ultimate
(10:51 PM) Thusness: there is nothing to attain
(10:52 PM) Thusness: we only attempt to create conditions to
experience certain aspect of our pristine awareness
(10:52 PM) Thusness: when we put attention into mindfulness, into
'bare' attention
(10:53 PM) Thusness: 'seeing' bare, we actually give up other
aspect of our pristine awareness
(10:53 PM) Thusness: that is the effortless spontaneity
(10:53 PM) Thusness: so when someone teach mindfulness
(10:54 PM) Thusness: he said put in effort to be bare in
attention....he is not wrong
(10:54 PM) Thusness: when some one said no no no, gentle effort in
being mindfulness and be bare in attention
(10:54 PM) Thusness: he is also not wrong
(10:55 PM) Thusness: for all these paths are truly pathless
(10:55 PM) Thusness: one that think he knows what is pathless
doesn't really know.
(10:55 PM) Thusness: he thinks effortless is doing nothing, laze
around
(10:55 PM) Thusness: and when he act, he thought that is
effort
(10:55 PM) ~Ukulele~:
(10:56 PM) Thusness: it is a misunderstanding of a dualistic
mind.
(10:56 PM) Thusness: this is another tricky part of awareness
(10:56 PM) Thusness: its all pervadingness
(10:57 PM) Thusness: say that after u understand the 'Self' as
everything, why need meditation
(10:57 PM) Thusness: and dogen said, must meditate, even buddha
meditate
(10:58 PM) Thusness: and said thought not necessary, still
meditate
(10:58 PM) Thusness: keekekeke
(10:58 PM) Thusness: then said practice and enligthenment is
one
(10:58 PM) Thusness: that is pathless
(10:58 PM) ~Ukulele~:
(10:58 PM) Thusness: neither do we do away with forms nor not
forms
(10:59 PM) Thusness: this is another tricky part
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But in the case if you feel you are 'putting too much effort', I
would say that is a problem of focusing too hard... bare attention
isn't just a matter of focusing or concentrating... in a way it is
effortless awareness. Why effortless? Does it take effort to hear
or see what is happening around you? Awareness is ever-present no
matter what... and it takes place effortlessly and spontaneously.
It takes no effort to hear the keyboard sound as I'm typing. It
takes no effort to see the words that are appearing on the screen.
Insight meditation or any form of "practising" naked awareness is
pointing to this. As Thusness says, "clarity must be effortless and
spontaneous...and that has to do with dissolving the sense of
self."
Enlightenment, True Nature, True Self, Wholeness, the
Unconditioned Absolute - whatever words have been given to what is
without words, unthinkable, unknowable, ungraspable - is not the
effect of a cause. It is luminously present and timeless,
overlooked by the roving intellect that is trying to grasp it, and
obscured by the bodymind's constantly shifting moods, desires, and
fears. Moment-to-moment meditation is clearly coming upon this
roving and shifting, resisting and fearing mind and the urge to do
something about it!... Meditation that is free and effortless,
without goal, without expectation, is an expression of Pure Being
that has nowhere to go, nothing to get.
There is no need for awareness to turn anywhere. It's here!
Everything is here in awareness! When there is a waking up from
fantasy, there is no one who dos it. Awareness and the sound of a
plane are here with no one in the middle trying to "do" them or
bring them together. They are here together! The only thing that
keeps things (and people) apart is the "me"-circuit with its
separative thinking. When that is quiet, divisions do not
exist.
~ The Silent Question: Meditating in the Stillness of Not-Knowing
by Toni Packer
But then again is effort needed? In another sense, yes.. in
terms of the 7 factors of enlightenment, it is called
'energy'.
http://www.urbandharma.org/udharma4/mpe14.html -
Mindfulness in Plain English
...Concentration and mindfulness are distinctly different
functions. They each have their role to play in meditation, and the
relationship between them is definite and delicate. Concentration
is often called one-pointedness of mind. It consists of forcing the
mind to remain on one static point. Please note the word
FORCE....
...Concentration is pretty much a forced type of activity. It can
be developed by force, by sheer unremitting willpower. And once
developed, it retains some of that forced flavor. Mindfulness, on
the other hand, is a delicate function leading to refined
sensibilities. These two are partners in the job of meditation.
Mindfulness is the sensitive one. He notices things. Concentration
provides the power. He keeps the attention pinned down to one item.
Ideally, mindfulness is in this relationship. Mindfulness picks the
objects of attention, and notices when the attention has gone
astray. Concentration does the actual work of holding the attention
steady on that chosen object. If either of these partners is weak,
your meditation goes astray....
...You can't develop mindfulness by force. Active teeth gritting
willpower won't do you any good at all. As a matter of fact, it
will hinder progress. Mindfulness cannot be cultivated by struggle.
It grows by realizing, by letting go, by just settling down in the
moment and letting yourself get comfortable with whatever you are
experiencing. This does not mean that mindfulness happens all by
itself. Far from it. Energy is required. Effort is required. But
this effort is different from force. Mindfulness is cultivated by a
gentle effort, by effortless effort. The meditator cultivates
mindfulness by constantly reminding himself in a gentle way to
maintain his awareness of whatever is happening right now.
Persistence and a light touch are the secrets. Mindfulness is
cultivated by constantly pulling oneself back to a state of
awareness, gently, gently, gently...
So I think you are putting too much 'FORCE' in concentrating on
a static point and blocking out any 'extras'... so some balancing
may be needed..