Mindfulness should be so clear that we "fully use our senses"
like in Mindfulness of Breathing meditation 
But there
is no self involved, just like if you close ur eyes and feel
anything...feel the hardness of the floor...like in mindfulness, is
that 'hardness' urs or mine or the floor?
Actually it's not yours nor mine. So if you go beyond labels and
become imageless, there will be arising. When one is not attached
to the arising, one penetrates into the object and the heart of the
object is consciousness.
True freedom comes when you
realise there is completely no self and no doer at all... all are
spontaneously self-arising out of conditions, miraculously
aware.
By the way I posted this in:
i need help
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Then be aware of that shivering, the practise of
anapanasati/mindfulness of breathing is to practise awareness, and
then in living, try to bring that awareness to our entire being
while not only restricting to the breathe.
How to be aware... anapanasati is not just a form of focusing.
There must be the quality of clarity... shi fu says... in
practising the dharma, even the tiniest insect - perhaps a mosquito
which flies past you, you will be aware. he also mentioned before,
meditation in buddhism is not a form of concentration that is
practised in other religions... in which he gave an example (not in
exact words but along this line):
At one time, a meditator exclaimed to the Buddha how great his
meditative experience was. He said 500 vehicles passed by, he did
not know any of it at all.
The Buddha replied: I also had great meditative experience. 500
Vehicles pass by, I am aware of every single one of them.
500 vehicles passed by, Buddha wasnt disturbed. meditation isnt
escaping from 6 sense experience, but be fully aware (and thus
undisturbed).
So i believe the point is whether you are shivering or just
breathing what matters most is the level of mindfulness.
In terms of anapanasati, we must be so closely aware of the
breathing, we must know the sensation, the coldness or warmness of
the air, the 'touch' of the air... sense it fully. is there effort
required to bring awareness? no... when you drop all labels and
wandering thoughts, the breathing itself knows... this is the
function of the buddha nature. it takes no effort to see, smell,
touch, it takes place by itself, it is awareness itself. no effort
to control anything at all...
We are bound to get physical and mental disturbance in meditation
especially when we are still not trained in them... it's ok, do not
resist them, accept them as it is and be aware. ultimately you're
not seeking some kind of great experience in meditation, good or
bad doesn't matter, but to remain conscious throughout. if thoughts
has been creeping up in your mind, ignore them, dont be interested
in them and they will pass. Do not treat as if the thoughts have
anything to do with you and they will just fall away.
Anyway good u're starting to meditate.
