I am a new Christian but I can't seem to accept what's being
preached to me nor what is written in the bible. I converted
because I spoke to the Creator when I was down and I believe He may
have healed me. But my beliefs and moral values are strangely
inclined towards Buddhism. Even now, when I attend church, cell
group and bible class, I can't seem to take it all in. Used to
attend CHC but can't take the atmosphere there - music makes it
feel like a rock concert instead of a holy event and ppl praying as
if in a trance and speaking gibberish (like in a cult). That's why
I avoid going to cell group now, even though I still attend church
and bible class. But I don't go to CHC anymore, even though my bf
does.
Think I am one big confused soul, hanging between Christianity and
Buddhism. Both Jesus Christ and Buddha are probably unhappy with me
now...