My heart was so pained till my left shoulder was cramping.
Its psychological.
I went to my old flat to collect letters and saw from afar, my
ex emerging from his mother's flat unit with a very dark skin 4
year old boy.
I tried to avoid going face to face and tried for a slightly
roundabout route. But still he and his kid walked straight
across from me and he had a good look.
I kept my face as passive as possible, but It still felt very
tight and stern.
Quickly collected the letters and left, but the pain just wont
abate. My neck at the left is still very very stiff and I can
feel a hard length from the base of my head to my left
shoulder.
~~~
And I just remembered that I was attending a class at a hospital
and when I was paying off my school fees, they apparently kept my
previous hospital records and addressed me as Mrs Yap.
I was kinda in shock when they addressed me that, but even when
the admin staff offers to change my addressing name later when I
told her I am no longer Mrs Yap.
I told her no need, because I couldnt think of any other name
they should addressed me by, because that Mrs thingy was theirs and
my attempt at keeping me anonymous for my part in that hospital
event which I participated.
