Maybe this is my secret self 
You Have a Melancholic Temperament

Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and
anything.
You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal
life.
You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic
for you.
Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner
peace.
You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of
life.
Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult
times.
At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap
you.
You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to
others.
You tend to over think small things, making decisions
difficult.