Hi..was reading this page...using my bf's account now. Might as
well share mine with you. I was almost 6 months pregnant before I
got the abortion done. I had a twin boys. Was studying in
Melbourne, and mum didn't know. I lost my father 3 years ago. So I
had to toggle with school, and pre-natal care and endless most
expensive visits to the doctor which I had to starve myself to pay
up for. I rang mum to send me extra cash, not like she didn't have,
but she just kpkb. In the end said no, but told me if i needed help
I could go to her. When I did, she turned away...even moral support
was denied.
In the end, I sold everything I had, my i-pod, my electronic
keyboard, some electronic things like an mp3 player, and with the
help of my friends, we managed to raise enough money for me to buy
a ticket home from Melbourne. Austrian Air, already around 600+ and
I only get 785 a month, sometimes less.
In the end, to cut a super long story short, I went for the
abortion, whcich cost me not only 4k(that one doesn't bother me as
much as what it did to me), but a very scarred person. My mother
heck care, threw me out of the house.
What I mean to say is, that although yes, the nightmares and the
guilt and feelings of being a murderer are more than strong in
ladies who have gone through abortions, sadly, life must go on. The
doctor told me one of my boys had an abnormal head, a kind of birth
defect, so i might not survive if I gave birth, let alone the two
boys. I turned out fine, but my boys are dead. Maybe its kind of
unfair, but at the moment just try to lift yourself up and carry
on. It hurts like hell, but it truly isn't the end of the world.
