mebbe it is time for me to make my dedication oso le...
This is for him who made me believe in love, who makes me feel once
like there was someone who really cares for me, someone who always
walk me home, someone who always listen to me whenever I need
someone to...
Do you still remember the time when you stood outside the Ladies
because you were scared I would do something silly inside after I
got that terrible letter?
Do you still remember the time when we walked all the way to the
concert hall just because we wanted to be wif each other for a
longer time?
Do you still how we held hands when we ice-skated together while
the Christmas lights blinked all around us? (How do I ever go back
there now?)
Do you still remember how we can spend hours talking or just enjoy
each other's company in silence?
Maybe you don't. You have already moved on, I can tell. Why am I
still here? I am the one who made the decision that we shouldn't
even talk to each other anymore, but when you did exactly that, why
do I feel like my heart is being ripped apart?
I might look calm yesterday but my heart has never felt so
tormented before yesterday. I want to look in your eyes and I want
to let you see all the pain inside, but at the same time my pride
prevented me from doing so. So I pretended to be happy, I pretended
to smile happy smiles, laughed as if I was enjoying myself. But I
could not ignore the silence, it felt like a wall has been erected
between us now. When we used to be able to talk about everything
last time, now we both behave like strangers.
The silence...it is almost deafening. i feel as if my heart has
been lost forever.
I know you do not know of the existence of this forum. But I would
like to dedicate this song to you, Xin Dong...Just want to thank
you for everything you have done for me before, and to let you know
that I have never hated you even though you have hurt me a lot. A
lot of people said I was cruel to make this decision, but only I
know how hard it is. But I guess it is the best way to move
on...
And like I have told you last time before we stopped talking...I
will always remember. You will always have a place in my heart. i
wish you all the happiness in the world. Maybe one day, you will
find a better girl who will make you happier than what I have made
you feel.
You told me you don't know what is it like to love a person. I hope
one day you will find out...I am sorry I couldn't be the one to
give the meaning of that word to you.
i.c.y