I am feeling very confused lately.
I am 30 years old, single, unmarried, never had a girlfriend
before. Only went on a few dates before.
For the past 4-5 years, my poly friends have started taking me
to those lup sup KTVs.
I find it very enjoyable but at the same time, I also have a
drinking problem; I tend to blackout when i take liquor too fast.
It worries me about my health. I have been trying to go to AA
meetings.
the ironic thing is that I am a virgin and closest group of
friends i hangout with know that - the same group that bring me to
KTV.
On last Sat night, celebrating a friend's birthday, i had a
blackout after 1 pm - the KTV closed at 3 pm and my friends bought
me to a coffeshop where I started puking halfway and I slept with
my head on the table anbd lay comatose there till 8 am. I don't
remember a thing after 1 pm (because of the blackout). My friends
said I tipped the girls higher than the average rate: 2 of them,
$70 each. Normal rate was $50. Liquor charges were another $120.
There were only 4 of us, so it really hurt the wallet but I have
been feeling very lonely and depressed recently.
There was a period of time during a one year period, when I kept
going to KTV, then i had a blackout, so I stopped going for a
period of 2 years plus, except for a single time in Jan 2015 for
another friend's birthday. Last sat night was my second
blackout.
Anyway, my question is, for a single, unattached guy like me,
with no financial commitments like mortgages, does it make sense
for me to enjoy going to KTV?
I was really worried about the black-out; i know it is a
drinking problem, but it disturbs me that I cannot recall and I am
worried that I may have been too rough, although I was with my
friends, so they would have kept a lookout and I think those girls
are more than capable of looking out for themselves; plus the mummy
was there too.
