Oneday. if I'm into a rs, I will try to give her all the best I
can and treat her with tlc. But what I'm afraid of is it might not
last.
Meaning, I have to find someone else again if it happens. And I
have to do everything over again. If I put in my 101% for the first
time, I just don't have the energy to give the same amount of
effort for the second time.
In other words, I'm LAZY. 
And I knew that if I keep on having this mentality, I will remain a
loner forever.