..... If you think it is a big burden to shoulder yourself, try
to get your closed friends or his friends/families to assist you.
You need to be strong and remain calm, or else he will be feeling
guilty and wouldn't want you to get near him. Try to get
councelling assistane from the hospital that had treated him, as
this hospital normally has wide network of support groups. At least
you are sensibled, you knew you got to save yourself first in order
to help your boyfriend. Death is a very sensitive subject to
different people, get outside help if possible.
.....Be strong for your boyfriend and Be there for him during this
difficult time of his life. You take care too......