the guy says he didn't contact the girl for one month cos in
that one month he was in conflict with himself, whether or not to
ask for another chance... that he had to sort things out with
himself, what he really wants. and to gather the courage to pop the
question again.
actually, the girl is just a very troublesome girl. she finds the
guy someone she can rely on (for she cannot just rely on anybody.
in fact, there are only 3 guys in the world she can rely on,
including this guy.). and so she doesnt want to lose someone she
can rely on. just as a friend. everytime they decided to disappear
from each other's lives so that the other party can lead his/her
own life happily, somethings happen. and the girl faces a major
catastrophy in her life and she really cannot handle it alone, and
she feels she cannot go to the other two guys.. she feels there is
only one person she can turn to, and it's him... but still, she
hesitates.. she always fears the unknown that will happen because
of her actions.. yet, circumstances worsen, she really needs
someone... and finally she will call the guy and pour out her soul
into him. and the entire thing begins again...
she needs him to rely on. yet she fears to go into anymore more
than friendship with him. he is too intense for her to feel
somfortable around him. he always makles his love feel very heavy.
sometimes resorting to making the girl feel guilty for certain
things, make her feel obliged to take care of his feelings. (i love
you so much.. why are you doing this to me?) how she wished they
could at least start as friends. go out together for dinner without
that heavy burden in her heart that he is consistently hoping for
something more. at least not until they have built a true
friendship. a foundation.
but no!! the guy doesn't get it. it's either she gives him the hope
of being together, or nothing. that he can't see her as a friend no
matter what. he wouldnt even try to build things from scratch. the
girl has hinted, even took a step towards him, saying that she
hopes she can still rely on him, even though she will be always
feeling guilty cos she canot promise him hope (but at least they
will still be in touch)... but nope. he dismisses it altogether.
says he cant do it. says if there isnt a clear cut hope from her,
he cant let her rely on him as a friend cos it hurts him to be just
friends.
gal gets pissed. and walks away after calling the guy the biggest
idiot she has ever met.
