Everyone feels despondent at times and you are no exception. You
are feeling so depressed because it seems that everything that
could go wrong has gone wrong and you don't quite know which way to
turn. So like the proverbial ostrich you are trying to bury your
head in the sand. But that won't work - you have to face
reality.
You are very orderly, methodical and self sufficient. You demand
and need the respect, recognition and understanding of all those
who enter into your sphere on influence.
Your confidence has been shattered. There are so many things that
you would like to do with your life, so many dreams to be fulfilled
- and you know that your hopes and dreams are not just figments of
your imagination, they are real and you are looking for reassurance
from someone. Basically your fears are such that you may be
prevented in attaining your hopes and dreams. Even now you would
like to broaden your fields of endeavor but in order to develop
your 'inner- self' you need peace and solace. You are distressed by
the fear that you may be prevented from attaining your goals. What
you really need at this particular moment in time is quiet
reassurance from someone close to you to restore your
confidence.
Whatever has caused the situation, you just don't seem to be able
to sustain or maintain relationships as you would wish to. What you
really seek is to be able to develop a relationship with someone
with whom you can truly share: Love, Serenity, Peace and Quiet. But
you are a very demanding person and it is your nature that leads to
disquiet and discord: you are like the tide, flotsam and jetsam...
One minute you experience 'highs' and a few moments later 'lows'.
This obviously will introduce discord into any relationship and
with this demanding attitude - the ideal state you desire is unable
to develop. Despite the urge to gratify your natural desires, you
impose a considerable self-restraint on your instincts in the
belief that this demonstrates your superiority and raises you above
the common herd. You are extremely critical of everything that is
presently going on around you and you find it difficult to listen
to or to take advice from anyone. You enjoy the original, the
ingenious and the subtle.
The need for admiration and to be regarded as 'someone special' is
perhaps one of the foremost aims in your life at this time. You
would like to perhaps do something outrageous or anything that will
give you the chance to be recognized as someone special. This
desire has now almost become an obsession and in your own way you
are trying to fulfill this 'complex' by ensuring you are the center
of attention, both at work or play, or in the home. Stop trying so
hard and you will find that people will like you for who you are -
not for who you are pretending to be.