haiz! how i wish i have a blog at this time.. but it will be
inactive very soon..!
i had a really bad day..have to wake up very early to do
homework that i havent done... dam hungry.. then later mother woke
up and saw me hungry so cook me a bread with onion and meat.. dam
nice.. then go to sch everything was just fine.. then later o lvl
chinese oral.. I AM THE LAST TO TAKE THE CHINESE ORAL FOR TODAY!
making me so nervous.. then keep having gases in my tummy (most
probably due to the onion, but i dun blame my mum and i thanks her
for the nice breakfast)
then the oral examiner asked me the 1st question, i answered.. i
answered correctly (which i found out only after the oral) but the
examiner tot i got the wrong idea of the question and repeated
(might minus mark, all the examiner fault, i said the right thing
and is answering the question very well) and then i got more
nervous, cuz i tot i misheard the question... the examiner always
give that stern face while the other give nice friendly face.. make
me so nervous.. the usual one of the top few chinese students (me)
had done badly for oral.. 40% my fault.. 60% examiner fault! i am
not pushing blame or wat.. but it is dam true.
later i come back home depressed about the oral.. told everything
to my mother, then she comforted me.. thanks mum. i feel much
better, took a bath, eat and watch one hour TV. then very tired..
but had to force myself to do homework..
then the stupid father comes giving me attitude (due to the thing
he did last time, violence is the only i communicate with my
father, and i always got the upperhand cuz i am big size) and
delaying my allowance by 1 month.. (i allowed him to do so tho..
pls note that his contribution to the family as a father is around
0%.. it is kind of me to not give him negative..) he keep doing
stupid things making me angry and frustrated.. really stupid
stuff.. my mother even helped me scold father... i know i am right,
really right.. i thought it all over and i am still right.. i know
i am not stubborn.. one hell of a father.. no money still wan
gamble, no money gimme allowance still gimme attitude, no money
still dun wan find job fast.. always find so slow.. ( not even
really trying, i force him then he find job).. stacking up with my
homework, filing, pressure, oral stuff... and that father of mine..
i got really pressured.. i cried.
lock myself in a room.. cried.. luckily there is this teddy dog
of mine that i could at least pour my sorrow to.. punch the wall..
then come out (actually calm already) see the father again... make
me angry again.
you might be curious why my father and i are like enemy.. from 1 yr
old to 12 yr old he used violence on me, nv taught me a thing, no
patience on me.. treat me as if i am his slave even if i am his
biological son, always lose money whack me.. torture and abuse my
mother and me.. and my brother.. everyday beat me and scare me..
scold me..
anyway if u are able to read till here, u are good..
summary would be : bad day, really a bad day
haiz just to whine here and get it all over with.. rather than a
blog..
well there are still good things today.. 9 very pretty girls board
the same bus as me today. the pretty girl in my class talk to me
(but found out she is close to one of the nerd, i hate the nerd..
always so sarcastic in talking, think he very humorous when he took
my joke, spread rumours to smear my reputation, give him good
things he complain.) HAAAAAAAIZ!
seriously.. the good things are actually nothing... best thing is
my mother and my dog.. and my brother.. even volunteered to give me
my allowance temporarily (tho i didnt take cuz he is my brother
afterall, my bro is 30 yr old and i am 16..)
HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIZ hate this life... but at least there
are still a few things good in this very bad day.
Congratulations on reading so much words. Thanks for reading. WIsh
me luck for my future days please.
IA
