We get along well and he is loving and affectionate.He have a very
busy schedule but he still puts in effort to see me which I am
thankful. We live far apart and attend different school. I am 18
and he is 20. He has goals and ambitions which is a total turn on,
intelligent, pamper me with treats and send me off home. He was
sweet and playful at times which I am totally fine with
it.
But the things that I dont like about him is that he don't really
initiate a plan, it will have to be always me deciding where to
hang out and eat, he used to be a mega player last time- he
confessed that he make-out with more than 40 girls, he described
himself as persuasive and use it only when he benefits, he is
incredibly dirty-minded and makes dirty jokes, when I retaliate him
back a little for his comment, he will be pissed and will give rude
reply and blame me for over-thinking, he thinks negatively too like
he say he is going to die soon because he has a heart problem, he
is attractive and popular with girls and it makes me insecure at
times, he still uses tinder where I check his online status , he
don't really text me that much nowadays and he said he was busy
with work, he has raging hormones and wanted to touch me in public
and it makes me uncomfortable sometimes. We are both virgins btw
and he was my first serious boyfriend- we dated for 6
weeks.
One incident that really affected me is the time when I went to his
house and he just forced himself on me like a jungle cat, grinding
me, making out with me, touch my boobs and butt where all i wanted
was to cuddle with him. I got so grossed out when he *** on my
thighs. I got really tired of his sexual desires but I wasn't
mad about him because I was into him a lot.
I feel like he is saying "I'll do what I wants to" just like what I
"did" to other girls. If he is not willing to respect me and change
his immaturity, I dont think I can go on with this.