Why not get a job related to gaming if thats what you seem to
like doing mostly? Or just get a job first, any job, I find that
when you are doing something you dont really like, it forces your
brain to come up with a list of things that you'll want to do
instead, pick one from the list, and find a job related to it
if it isn't a job. Just do something, if you don't, nothing will
change.
