Note that I have used
fictional names (including my own) to protect the identities of the
people involved in this story. I am solely seeking advice regarding
my unberable predicament which I will try my best to explain in the
next few posts while keeping the authenticity of the story to the
best of what I know. Being extremely complicated, please take time
to read and tell me what you think. I am aware it is not an easy
problem but refrain from writing negative remarks.
I am a 37 year old
male, or shall I say it is what I am listed as. I have a deep
psychological illness which is currently being diagnosed and
seeking treatment. I have a past history of being abused by my
stepmother ever since my birth mother passed away when I was 10
years old. I began to develop the mindset that all "females" are
aggressors and there exists in this world, two types of people.
One, the "male" gender who is typically the strict, unforgiving and
profit driven character, and the other, the "female" which I
created to be people who exist to equalise the former. Because of
that, I also see actual females as mostly people who belong to the
first category due to my upbringing, and certain males to be the
second. My father runs a well established business and I see him as
a business person who is good in making profits. After graduating
from my primary education, I was homeschooled and the only friends
I made were other homeschooled kids whom I played together
with.
I got to know a
childhood friend, Thomas who later become my lover. We been through
thick and thin, and he has supported me in many ways. However, I
was afraid to bring this up to my father. I am the only child of my
family and the sole inheritor of my father's business and he was
rushing my marriage since I turned 35. A sudden twist came and we
are finally getting close to being together when the nightmare
happened....
2 years ago, I learnt
that my cousin, Alice is seeing a girl. At that time, she did not
know of my relationship with Thomas and I was not a bit suspicious
of her behavior. I offered to meet the girl with her one day. One
thing led to another and I came to find out that the girl was
actually Thomas's sister, Tina. Months later, we went on trips and
double dates without our parents' knowledge. Due to my father's
constant presurring to set me up with matchmakers, the four of us
came up with a devious plan. Alice and Thomas will get married
first, allowing Thomas to stay at my house as my uncles's
son-in-law and then Tina and I will get married after that. The
four of us often got together at family dinners and soon, Alice and
Thomas got married. I was extremely nervous during the ceremony,
but I swallowed my pride and we began living together since last
year. It was then I started to find out the unimaginable.