Well, I just lost another boyfriend, which makes umm...4 in 5
months, and if your still don't know why, it's because they can't
accept me as I'm transsexual.
/rant
So what's different now? I mean I'm still the very same girl which
they fell in love from the start. In their eyes I was an angel, the
perfect girlfriend, fun; pretty; cute; sweet; basically, everything
they were looking for in me. But when I tell them the truth,
everything just changes completely.
He promised me it wouldn't end up the same way like it did with my
previous boyfriend, but that's pretty much how it turned out.
Initially they are left a little shocked, but still okay, and they
think that it's still possible for things to work out. But then a
few hours later the full impact strikes them, and they realize
what's going on, then they tell you "Sorry, but I don't think I can
continue this relationship. However we can still be friends."
Friends? Yea right. Things never remain the same after that. They
just seem to distance themselves further and further away from me.
They ignore my phone calls, ignore my messages. Even when I manage
to get them to respond to me, most of the time their replies are as
dead as...dead, or they try to find a way to get away from
you.
A chat with me and my second-last ex after 1 month of not
talking.
Me: Hello.
Him: Hi umm, I'm busy now, I'll call you back later.
Me: Okay...
(he never called back)
A chat with my last ex after 2 weeks of not talking.
Me: Hello, are you free now?
Him: Huh? Err, actually I was just going to watch something.
Me: Oh...
Him: Err, if you still want to talk, I can while I watch my
show.
Him: Actually, nevermind, I'll just watch my stuff, and have my
lunch, then I got some things to do.
Him: Bye bye then.
Me: Bye...
Have your read today's article on how people with AIDS are
discriminated against, and choose to keep it from people around
them, except those whom matter? Well, it's similar to what I
experience, not in terms of people don't want to share things with
me, but more on how people distance themselves from you, how you
lose friends, how you become an outcast.
Is it that hard to accept a transsexual woman? I mean, hey, I'm
still the same person you fell in love with. Am I fated to be alone
for the rest of my life? 
