thanks for all the sharing and the kindness, at least now
everyone, not just myself, can find some common rapport (and more
importantly, solace) here not readily available even with the most
expensive counseller (who NEVER drove a cab for much needed
living). Though the bad news is almost everyone has their own sad
stories, but now that they are out in the open, they instead become
everyone's good news, becos now everyone knows that everyone else
is also not born a saint from the 1st min! Everyone is HUMAN.
i will just add 3 things here.
right after i started this thread (about my phobia), immediately
something happened but i do know its not my entirely fault. I
dont blame myself but at the same time I dont feel good either.
what i dont know is if its really suay or sixth sense. or both.
secondly, i heard someone mention starting off omo make $5. but
strangely i made over $100 (now its almost $150) for the few days i
started..my friends and family find it strange when i tell them for
some reason, I always manage to pick up the next passenger either
at the same place I dropped off the previous one or just around the
next bend, the next building, or the next junction. even if i wait
around or join a queue (which I only do so becos I am tired and
wants to take a breather to sort some loose ends), always in less
than 5min, someone will automatically come up, sometimes i also
dont know which direction they come from until they suddenly open
the door suddenly and i look up into the mirror to see who...or is
all this just beginner's luck?
last bit. about the way i express myself. i applied to the
University of London to undertake their Bachelors of Law degree for
distance learning and on location study. I was offered a 2yrs
graduate entry for the former. and a full 3yrs on campus study for
the latter. I know the 2yrs here is not really the same as the 3yrs
on campus one, I really wanted to drop everything and fly over
blind for 3yrs. But as i said. everyone is human. I really dont
know what will happen after I finish paying for the 1st air ticket
to go over. and maybe after the first month rent. and I cant drop
everything yet. at least for another 1-2yrs. And after going
through all that, there is still no assurance if my paper chase
will pay fruition given I am a late bloomer. As for coming to
driving, I always face a common problem at work. If I sound better
than the seniors, somewhere someone will throw me out. If I sound
better than the juniors, somewhere someone will throw me out. At
the end of the day, I am neither here nor there. I never figure out
how I should sound exactly so that everyones happy, so I chosed to
move on.
sgcabby, yeah i'm the one who made $5 on my first few days.
means collection is around $150, deduct ~ $145 rental + diesel and
i take home 5 miserable bucks. NOW if you're making $150 (means
nett, not collection?) then you don't have any problem at all. now
as a dayshift driver, i take home $150 only on good days, $130 is
the average. but this month dam solid, got more than $200 takehome
pay. enuf said.
as what xbird said, just drive, don't think about accidents
happening. these things have a life of their own if you dwell too
much on them. the most important thing is to swallow your pride and
accept the status quo. with acceptance, the driving part will
become easy as you become relaxed. no point dwelling on the past.
good luck.
