thanks guys ...
To be honest , i did have quality time with my father for the
last 10 years or so .
But he always chose to neglect us when we were young , only my
mum took care of us .
Go drinking , gamblings , and to know he has a mistress , really
did more harm than good .
And right now , his mistress is with him at NUH .
he chose to be with his mistress , rather than us and mum .....
well .
I remember when i was in hospital for 10 days , due to high
fever when i was about 10 , i don't remember seeing him at all
.
I am not being revengeful , just that , my dad and me just
doesn't have the bond .
So right now , i just relax .
Felt bad he has cancer , but not really sad to see him going ,
cos i believe human being , it's sooner or later only .
It's how he value his life when he was younger .
Night lifes , excessive alcohol , excessive supper , not working
hard , mistress .... not one , but 2 if i can remember .
I did my best when he was ok ...siding him when he has quarrel
with mum , well ....as i've said , i did my best .
I don't need to show just before he's going to die .... i had
did my best supporting the whole family since i started work
.
I bought a 5 room for him to stay with me , ate good food , not
shortage of funds for him .
If i am in his shoes ..... it's ok with me if my sons did the
same , not spending the last .
Cos i understood what i've done ...
The Bondings is the key here .