Dear Belle,
CHOI CHOI CHOI! Aiyo, how can you curse yourself?? From your msg, i
gather that you are having some probs right now and probably got
quite hurt and disappointed. Maybe now you feel that after what
you've been through, you are simply too exhausted to tackle new
problems that life throws you.
C'mon dear girl, I'm sure you have more spunk than that. When
problems arrive, face them squarely and look for solutions. With
your dear and all your friends & family, you have nothing to
fear. You are never alone when tackling your problems, just
remember that. When you are saying that you will want a shorter
life span just coz you don't wanna handle more problems, its like a
child who refuses to learn to walk after falling her first steps.
If she stops just there, how can she know the wonders of strolling,
running, skipping or just walking?
My dear Belle, I've seen kids, even toddlers, stricken with
terminal illnesses and yet courageously battling it out for their
lives. How can you, a wonderful girl with loves, friends, and
family, just give up on life?
Stay strong girl. Just remember, you'll never be alone. 
