"A girl and a guy can be
just friends, but at one point or other they will fall for each
other... Maybe temporarliy, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too
late, or maybe forever ..."
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Very touching and meaningful
story. A Diary ** from a guy
*January 2*
Do you still remember the first time we met? It was the first day
in school. I was hurriedly entering the school gate when I bumped
into you as you stepped out of a luxurious Volvo.
The books you were holding fell all over the ground. I quickly
picked up the books and returned them to you along with words of
apology, but all you showed me was your intimidating look. My first
impression of you was thatyou were a wilful girl born with a golden
spoon in the mouth. I had rejected you completely and had hoped not
to meet you again, but surprisingly you turned out to be my
classmate.
*March 22*
I started to know more about you as days passed and my opinion of
you changed for the better on each passing day. I realised that you
were from a wealthy family but definitely not a wilful girl. You
were nice and friendly. Yo! u got angry that day we first met
because I had left a footprint marking on the poetry collection you
loved dearly. We met often during lunch break and I found something
in you that was different from the rest of the girls - your passion
for Chinese poetry. Often you would mumble something to
yourself.
Initially, I thought that you were humming a pop song but later I
realised that you had been reciting Chinese poems from great poets.
You were so knowledgeable that you knew every poet and which poems
they composed. I was very impressed indeed.
*April 5*
I met you again in the study area. That day you were reading the
Chinese classics "Romance of the 3 kingdom". Your ability to
appreciate Chinese classics left me with admiration. You were
indeed unique in many ways.
*May 5*
From then on, we would often meet in the study area to discuss
about the good and bad things of the character in those Chinese
classics. Do you still remember the time when we almost broke off
because we could not agree on whether Jia BaoYu hurt Lin Dai Yu?
Our argument was so fierce that we never talked for that week. But
when Friday came, we still met in the study area and laughed over
the incident. After which, another argument started.
*Aug 7*
I could not deny it. It was a feeling I could not identify
accurately. Wenever you laughed over a joke with other guys, that
emotion filled my senses. It took me a while before identified it.
I was in love; the feeling was jealousy. I felt the need to express
it. But, I was afraid...that you would dismiss my feeling, that you
and I would be stuck in an embarrassing situation, that our long
nurtured friendship would crumble...therefore, I kept quiet.
*Oct 1*
The news came as a shock to me. I was so worried when I learnt that
you had fainted in the canteen. I was struggling to keep my worried
face in control as I looked at the ambulance that carried you
away.
*Oct 2*
It was drizzling that day. Our form teacher sadly announced that
you had got cancer. As she finished her last sentence, outside the
classroom, it seemed to me that the drizzle had turned into a
downpour. I could only hear the sound of the rain, nothing more. I
rushed to NUH ICU to see you immediately after lesson. Your face
was whitish in colour, showing no trace of red. I learnt that you
had just undergone an operation. The life-support system was just
beside you with tubes piercing mercilessly into your left wrist. "I
am all right, it is just a serious case of anemia. Believe me, my
parents told me that". you said convincingly. I knew fully well
what you were thinking, you did not want me to be worried. "Are you
comforting yourself or comforting the fears and hopelessness that
was written all over my face?", I thought to myse! lf. I was not
strong enough to disagree with you and I nodded my head with a
forced smile. You responded with a smile too-with great
effort.
*Oct 5*
It was a ordinary day but to me, it was an important day. I felt an
impulse to express my love. I walked over to the side of your bed,
holding your hand. I told you the story of how an ordinary guy fell
in love with a girl who likes poetry and Chinese classics. As I
told my story, my eyes started to flood with water, and
uncontrollably my voice started to choke, and finally I broke into
tear But you held my head against your body and with watery eyes,
said:
"I understand such a love, so did the girl." I returned my eyes to
her and at that moment, her tears dropped, and for the first time,
I saw some redness on her lips.
*Oct 26*
It was the last day of examination and I rushed to NUH to continue
my story. When I reached there, I only saw the nurse arranging the!
bed you once slept on. When I asked about you, the nurse told me
expressionlessly that you had passed away. It was a bolt from the
blue for me. I stood motionless for a long time. I hated myself for
spending the last few days preparing for the last examination
paper. I hated myself for not staying longer the last time I
visited you. I hated myself so much...but you were gone...... I
can't remember how I got home that day. When I woke up, I was
already in my room. The pillow I slept on was wet. The next day, I
went for the funeral. I heard from your father that on the day you
passed away, you were still reading the Poetry collection I gave
you as a gift for your birthday. Standing in front of Your
portrait, I had no tears, they were used up on the day of your
death. All I knew was sadness, my heart was like shattered into
pieces and died.
*Jan 2*
A new girl has taken over your seat. She does not like poetry, but
she likes to hum pop songs. When I asked her if she knows Jia Bao
Yu, she
replied: "What talking you." Yes, you were gone. But to me, the
seat is still unoccupied, and maybe no one will ever occupy
it......
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This is a true story that
happened 10 years ago!!!! Now then Can fully understand what the
author means by "A PERSON WILL KNOW WHAT IS PAIN ONLY WHEN HE HAS
BEEN THROUGH IT...." To cut the whole story short...jus wanna tell
u pple that.....
IF U TRULY LOVE THAT SOMEONE... JUS GO RIGHT UP TO HIM OR HER OR
GIVE A PHONE CALL RIGHT NOW TO SAY "I lUV U " AND EXPRESS YOUR
FEELINGS FOR THAT PERSON B4 IT'S TOO LATE!!!!!
A Guy would rather shed blood than shed tears but that's because he
has yet experience sadness. The moral of the story is to treasure
your love ones coz they might not be always around. Share this
story to those you cherish most and let them feel their "presence"
are important as they are part of our lives too!!
*"Fate brings us together, but it's still up to you to make it
happen."*
