i dun really know what happened to u ley...
but chiu cannot always be so emo and hang on to what you cannot
have / what you've lost...
even if inside u dun feel ok, sometimes trying to be ok on the
outside will make u feel better on the inside... it's like, if u
force urself to smile once, maybe u will be able to smile a second
time... a third time... and eventually the smile will really be
back on ur face loh......
erm, do u understand what i'm saying? cos i have a feeling i'm not
making much sense 
