From : a so call friend
Sent : Tuesday, September 26, 2006 10:38 PM
To : the friend
FIREND,
from the looks of things seems that you're not too happy.
well, i've seen on your msn that your're in us. i am happy for you.
because that's all you ever wanted to do for the longest time. you
can say and think what you want. that's the truth.
when i saw you coming online i tried to msn you. i have spent some
time with you and i know the reaction you'll give. if i am not a
friend, why would i even want to do that, knowing the short temper
that you have and knowing the things you'd say?
the truth is that things have not been too rosy even since the last
time we met at compass point when i passed you your spare
key.
whatever i have now is all given. this year alone, i had to move 3
times. unlike your situation, i was driven out by my own people
whom i have given my best. and till today, i am still paying for
the thousands owing by them. you know it. you've seen the letters.
put yourself in my shoes, how would you have handled this?
my days have been spent trying to pay off the loans as best i can
and keeping my sanity at the same time. i do not have a wide social
circle at alll. and you know that. most of the people i know are
your friends to start with. i do not have the luxury of keeping the
company of friends as much as i would like.
but i have found God. and in these bad times He is the One Whom is
keeping me going. my pocket may be thin, but my faith is as strong
as ever.
you know me as a sincere person. especially in the times with your
mother, i tried my best to make the situation as best as i can and
stay as long as i can so you'll not be alone with her. it was only
when you decided to move on that i shifted. we both spoke about
this and you did tell me to find another place because of the
situation. you were on my bed and crying. i stayed because even
though i could not do anything, you needn't have to go through it
alone.
in anycase, i think your anger and disappointment may have gotten
the better of you. if you stiill think that i am not a true friend
because i did not contact you as often, i can tell you my
friendship with you has always been direct and blunt. you know that
as well as anyone. between us, there was never a time when we
counted beans. whatever we had we shared, although you shared more.
and i am grateful for that.
if you choose to think that i am who you make me out to be, i have
tried to clarify. i already know the reaction you'll give. as a
friend, all i can say is not to be angry for too long. my family
whom i have loved have abandoned me with the things they have
enjoyed at my expense. imagine if i maintain that anger, i would
have no peace. right now, for me, it's all about moving on and not
letting my anger hold me back. i've learnt to accept things.
i sincerely hope you'll find what you're looking for there. i know
for a fact there's much experiences and oppurtunities over there.
and i wish you peace more than anything.
so call friend
