Dear diary,
Gosh it had been ages since i came here.... sorry... had been
really busy...
Is tat good or bad i do wonder....
Had been down with flu today.... Tat horrible feeling came back
again... helplessness... gosh i hate it...
I made a choice yesterday.... till now i still dunno if wat i
decided is right... but it just seems so right now.. especially
when everything's so bleak.. it's like a flicker of light, giving
hope....
It's awfully scary diary, when u know you're stepping on such thin
line.. that u'd fall with a wrong move...
I know the chances that i'd be back in square one again is very
very high......... tat i'd probably have to pick myself up again...
but this time i'll make sure i'm ready... I won't let myself fall
so hard.. One won't, when one do not put too much into it
right???
It's wrong diary, i know... so so wrong... and i know there'll be
much suffering...but i need it right now.. like i need the air to
breathe.... please understand...
But i'll never forget diary... nor will i completely let go... what
happened might seem insignificant to many... but it's my calling...
i'd finally see the world the way it is... I'll not forget...
really missed talking to ya... promise i'll come in more often
k...... 
take care...
