Dear diary,
today my decision have been finalised......i really dunnoe whether
is that a correct decision??
My dear ah jies,
when di was finalising his decision as he signed on the paper,the
struggle he had in his heart was very very painful............he
felt so terrible that time.....he was totally in the loss of
mind.........
i really dont wish to give up but due to the problems i facing with
my family i had left with no choice...... this two days im totally
down with sad emotions with tears sometimes and very
moody........
i had this probs actually before i entered dis school....at first,i
stil manage to cope with it but from time to time im so tired that
i always slept in school till now i really dunnoe what i have
learnt that makes me face difficulties in my
attachment.........thats make me think am i really studying in
school or just go school to past time.......
before i make this decision i speak to my parents they didnt object
but in their heart i think they dont bear me to do so....but with
the situation i facing i really left with no
choice...i.........simply just cant take it anymore........if given
a choice i definitely want to continue on with my
studies...seriously......like what i say earlier on i dont blame
anyone i only blame myself for this kind of life i lead.....
jies when di ask u all out wanna talk talk,its not that he dont
wanna talk its just that he feel so miserable that he really dunnoe
to start from where and where to talk with...........jies dui bu
qi.......
im glad that when di is down my jies r there and im glad that some
of my friends understand me too.....
im like that when im down with something i usually dont talk much
and will just pondering and pondering over the
matter.........
hopefully my jies will understand and everyone will
understand.......
