looks like i'm once again dwelling into my miserable past. i
once had a very close friend in primary school whom i consider BFF
(best friends forever). my relationship with this person is more
complicated that bush's relationship with satan, yknow what i mean.
he's like one of my closest jiemei cum pal & we always go home
together after school. we'd share a cone of ice cream, play
chopstix using our toes, draw stuff on each others' bodies &
many other silly things.. though we went to different secondary
schools, we still see each other. mutual friends have been
gossiping about us & spreading lots of false rumours that are
hurting to him. as a friend i felt bad for him & distant away
from him for a while to stop these rumours temporary. soon after,
he got a gf & become very arrogant & bossy. i realised that
all the while he's treating me as his girlfriend without actually
letting me know. guess i was dumb enough to believe that guys &
girls can be close friends without getting involved in bgr. after
my psle days, i'd go for walks with him, shopping, movies &
all. just him & i.. i can't figure out what in the world this
girl did to him to cause such a huge change in him. now, not only i
dont have his contact, we haven't even spoken for almost 2 years
already.
as much as i treasure this relationship, it has just gone past me
like that. how sad!! 
my family also adds on to my sorrow.. i wont be that dumb to commit
suicide but i really must say this. all my family members dont
understand me at all.. even my sis who used to be caring has
changed ever since she has a well paid job.. once i told my parents
about planning to migrate and they don't even give a fu*k.. they
told me that it's up to me & they wouldnt care at all. wtf
