all! I'm at my wit's end so here I am posting here hopefully
someone can give me some pointers as to what to do next.
So a month before I POP-ed, tekong doctor realise there's an
abnormal lump around the bottom of my neck and set up an
appointment at CGH. He asked if I wanted downpes then,
obviously not because I've already done all the high-keys and I'm a
month away from POP. He suggested I wait for the appointment and
probably will downpes when I get posted to unit.
Today I went to see the specialist at CGH and the doctor
confirmed it was a thyroid nodule. He did 3 tests, a nascendoscopy
(put some camera wire down both my nostrils to the back of my
throat), drew blood twice directly from my thyroid nodule (he said
it was big enough to draw blood directly, roughly 3x2cm) and a
normal blood test.
The blood test result from the thyroid nodule will take 2 weeks
to come in so I have to go back in for a follow-up in 14 days
exactly from now.
My issue here is, I really want to downpes. It's not Chao keng
or anything, but this lump really affects me quite jialat,
swallowing feels fucked up. I cannot breathe right when doing PT
and find myself constantly out of breath. My palms are sweaty
almost always no matter where im at (hot or cold room) and I have
trouble sleeping every night, keep waking up constantly.
I have browsed several posts here on sgforums and everyone
agrees that "no specialist memo no talk". And I absolutely agree
except the specialist today was of no help.
The nascendoscopy he did today was probably the most nonsense
thing I've heard. When he looked into my airway and all, he
concluded that the thyroid nodule wasn't affecting the airway at
all. Yes normally of course it doesn't, but when I exert myself
(even doing simple push-ups or pull ups especially, the thyroid
lump will "choke" me and I can't breathe).
Doing any PT causes me to feel like I'm being choked it's like
holding my breath. I told the doctor how I felt, but he insisted
that my shortness of breath has nothing to do with my thyroid???
Instead he suggested an ECG and CCR because my shortness of breath
might be due to cardio or other respiratory issues.....
He sent me back to camp with a very disappointing memo. I was
hoping in his memo perhaps he might've stated "recommend for
downpes" or something of the sort but there wasn't.
This is where I'm very worried, the guards training is really
taking a toll on me, physically and mentally. And I keep pushing
myself. Last week I went to see the bedok camp MO and he only gave
me a excused running? Because he felt like it was only the first
week of training.
I almost passed out during the route march we had last week.
I'm really about to go kisiao already. What is my next step? I
haven't passed the memo to camp MO I'll probably do it Thursday or
Friday. What kind of decision will he make? Should I just tank for
the 2 weeks until my blood test results come out or what else can I
do? The training really got me fucked up quite bad and my thyroid
isn't helping at all.
Thank you for reading my super long post, if you have any
insight or advice please please please help me out here thank
you!!!