I have no idea how i should craft this post. Its kinda difficult
to explain...
I have a long time platonic friend of the opposite sex. We have no
physical relationship, simply not attracted to each other...
So the thing is, when we're attached, we dun really contact each
other, but when we're single, we'll hang out together.
For me its the longing for companionship i guess? She's my movie
kaki, shopping kaki, karaoke kaki, occasional clubbing kaki... We
don't really have much in common, in fact we disagree on many
things, but i always give in and endure her nonsense. Perhaps
because i do think we are friends. Even when she insults and
disrespects the things i love and cherish, i'll just pretend not to
hear and just rub it off as her being HER. Afterall there ARE times
when she is sweet. Rare as they are...
After all these years, she is still the way she was, and nothing
i've said had any effect on her. Give me another 10 years and i
doubt anything would change.
Sometimes i think i should just disappear from her life. But when i
look at her and how she has no one to turn to at all, my heart
softens and i can't bring myself to do it. Oh sure, she has
friends. Mostly guy friends who keep trying to bed her.... True
friends who would really care for her and not try to take advantage
of her? 1? 2? But what is the point of me remaining when i can't
make her see that the way she behaves and treats others is wrong?
She has her own warped interpretation of everything every single
time and refuses to accept what anyone says. In the end she would
take our silence as our agreement with her view. In a way i'm
agreeing with her and making her even more self-righteous...
So what should i do? It seems that every decision is wrong. Either
i hurt her or i hurt myself, or i'll eventually hurt someone
else...
Maybe someone has an answer? A sound advice? Or perhaps not...
