Hi Everybody,
I started smoking when I was 15, now I'm 40, but yesterday at
7.30am I stopped COLD TURKEY. Today, at this time 3.45am, I have
NOT smoked a single cigarrete.
Why am I writing this? Because I want to share with those of you
who are still smoking, the experience of quitting an expensive,
deadly habit, & stubborn addiction.
How I feel now:
Now, I don't feel the urge to light up and puff after pulling pass
the initial 8-16 hours. The urge to smoke has weaken considerably,
such that I can simply refuse to light up. Food tastes funny now
(not bad, just funny), because I just only stopped smoking, so it
may take some while for my taste to revert back to normal - most
people say food will taste better when or once you stopped
smoking.
All that I am having now is a cup of black coffee with not milk and
little sugar, I feel mentally alert without cigarettes, abd can
still do my work without it. Concentration is not affected by lack
of nicotine after 22 hours.
I'm not having insomnia being up this early, because to avoid being
bothered by the urge to smoke I slept really early last night
(around 9.45pm). Now I'm up and the urge to smoke has become really
weak.
I am happy with progress and my efforts, but I have identified
dangerous situations wherein I may be pulled back into it, so I
will avoid these situations.
Yes I may have to stay away from office for a few days, and conduct
work from home office for the sake of pulling pass the first week
as a normal person who does not smoke. I really want to quit this
addiction.
Side effects? Yes, IRRITABILITY. Yesterday, within the first 8
hours, due to withdrawal I accidentally raised my voice at my
employee. I apologised later, but he says he knows why I yelled at
him, and told me to keep up my efforts to stop smoking. I was so
touched - I knew then I have good people as emplyees. I bought him
dinner.
And then later, I nearly smashed my PDA phone on the ground because
I couldn't hear the other party due to bad connection, but my
colleague stopped me. Thank goodness, otherwise I'd be spending
more money replacing it.
Well, that's all for now, will come back and update as I go
along.
I tend to stay smoke-free forever. But even if I fail, I will come
here and say that I failed and reverted back to smoking, stating
cause and reasons.
But PERSONALLY, and RESOLUTELY, NO i don't intend to fail in this
final attempt.
