your first love

skid SG

My first love was 32 yrs. ago and I remember her like it was yesterday.

How good it felt being loved and loving her, how my cheeks hurt from smiling so much, how good she smelled, how we responded to each other's touch, how the first time we made love I thought we'd be with each other always.

Things don't work like you hope they will sometimes. I haven't seen her for very many years. I miss her. Crying or Very sad

browniebaobao SG

I believe they are gd memories of yesterday?

to me, all gd memories turned stale. I rather not have them.

borgkilla SG

I dont really think of her
but she will always have a place in my heart
Wink

Tier SG

I still think of him alot. heartpain man. Wondering why he can be so cruel. the first cut is the deepest.

browniebaobao SG

when feelings have faded, what can't he do?

he might not even care whether u are alive or dead.

Tier SG

yeah its been 5 month since we had separated ways. The reason he wanna break off is no time as he is in ns.

1 month ago I still ask him, have he ever missed me, theres no reply . Crying or Very sad when suddenly he reply its "cant I have a peaceful nap?" I only gave 2 msg and its 2 times, 1pm and 6pm, who is taking such a long nap. I can feel that any msg from me is irritating to him.

I decided to let go le. yesterday I heard from my friend that he asked his another ex out for a pool game. feel a pinch at my heart and shockness flood my head. all along during we are together he never reply his ex msges and even treat her coldly now after we separated he asked her out?? That girl is a friend. its my mistake to choose a friend's ex. miserable. Confused if I gotta face them outside together, I would buried my head into the cement floor.

he once told me de bu dao de dong xi cai shi zhui mei de,(things that you cant get is the most beautiful ones) I did get frightened of his this word. now I could understand his words, the more I contact him, he just feel I am a easy to achieve stuff no challenge anymore. he treat me so rude.

Choose the wrong guy now I gotta suffer heartbreak. my heart is bleeding. I dislike this kinda first love.

Kenashi SG

I agreed with this but I still tend to blame myself for not being gd enough for her, then I start to push myself to stretch my limit, both physically n mentally.
sometimes I ponder why I am doing this to myself.
is it to inflict pain on myself to forget about the hurt caused by her or to show her that I am gd enough for her n she should regret her decision for not accepting me??
Neutral

browniebaobao SG

let him go, and set urself free. He is not worth waiting for.

I will never go steady with a fren's ex. It will be damn awkward and embarrassing if they happen to share some secrets with common frens.

browniebaobao SG

haiz.. juz be urself.

wait for someone who will and is able to accept u for what u are, not making sacrifices and strain urself both physically and mentally. One day, u will break down.

Tier SG

yeah now I am much better now already, I asked a friend out to talk about it, last week got depression after the news. yeah I regret being with him man, cause I thought we wouldnt part. I think I wouldnt want a bf anymore. I will forcus on my career and interest. I cant have many bf and hurt so many times. once sounds enough.

browniebaobao SG

i can understand how u feel.

pat pat*

but if u really get over him, i believe u will be willing to try again, but u will be more cautious lor.

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