Act, speak, with full awareness and then you will find a
tremendous change in you. The very fact that you are aware changes
your acts. Then you cannot commit sin. Not that you have to control
yourself, no! Control is a poor substitute for awareness, a very
poor substitute; it doesn't help much. If you are aware, you need
not control anger; in awareness, anger never arises. They cannot
exist together; there is no coexistence for them. In
awareness, jealousy never arises. In awareness, many things simply
disappear - all the things that are negative.
It is just like a light. When the light is in your house, how
can darkness exist there? It simply escapes. When your house is
lighted, how can you stumble? How can you knock at the wall? The
light is there, you know the door, you simply reach the door, you
get out or in. When there is darkness, you grope, you stumble, you
fall. Anger is nothing but stumbling; jealousy is nothing but
groping in the dark. All that is wrong is wrong, not because of
itself but because you are living in darkness.
If Jesus wants to be angry, he can be; he can use it. You cannot
use it - you are being used by it. If Jesus feels that it will be
good and helpful, he can use anything - he is a master. Jesus can
be angry without being angry. Many people worked with Gurdjieff,
and he was a terrible man. When he was angry, he would be terribly
angry, he would look like a murderer! But that was just a game,
just a situation to help somebody. And immediately, not a single
moment's gap would be there, he would look again at the same person
toward whom he had been angry, and he would be angry and terrible
looking.
It is possible. When you are aware, you can use everything. Even
poison becomes elixir when you are aware. And when you are asleep,
even elixir becomes poison - because the whole thing depends on
your being alert or not. Acts don't mean anything. Acts do not
matter - you, your awareness, your being conscious, mindful, is
what matters. What you do is not the concern.
~ "Awareness", Osho
