21. If a fool was sitting in an assembly
hall, in the main street or at the crossroads and people were to
talk about him, and if he were one who broke the five precepts, he
would think: "These people are talking about me because I have done
these things." This is the first kind of anguish and dejection that
the fool experiences here and now.
Again, a fool might
see the king arrest a thief or wrongdoer and punish him. And upon
seeing this, the fool would think: "The king is punishing this
wrongdoer. Now, I have done these things also, so if the king were
to know about me, he might punish me also." This is the second kind
of anguish and dejection that the fool experiences here and
now.
And again, while
the fool is sitting in a chair, or lying on a bed or on the ground,
those evil deeds that he has formerly done with body, speech or
mind come to rest on him, lie on him, settle on him, just as when
at evening, the shadows of the great mountain peaks come to rest,
lie and settle on the ground. At such times, the fool thinks: " Oh
indeed, what is lovely has not been done by me, what is skillful
has not been done, I have made no refuge against the fearful. There
is a place for those who have done no good, only evil, and to there
I will go." And so he grieves, mourns, laments, beats his breast,
cries and falls into disillusionment. This is the third kind of
anguish and dejection that the fool experiences here and now.
Majjhima Nikaya III.163