For the sake of truth
Conny Larsson's story
The Swami who deceived a whole world
Conny Larsson was very close to Sai Baba. Today he runs a home for
young abusers and criminals near Valdemarsvik, a small town on the
coast of the Baltic Sea in Sweden.
(Photo Sai Baba and Conny Larsson.)
Conny's contact with Sai Baba started when Conny tried to commit
suicide in Sri Lanka in 1978. He intended to drown himself in the
ocean. Then Sai Baba emerged from a small hut on the shore and came
walking towards Conny in the water.
- He called me out of the water and told me to go to India.
- I went to his ashram in Puttaparthi. There Sai Baba walked up to
me and said: "So you have arrived now!" I said I came from Sweden.
"No", he said, "you come from Sri Lanka." Later I was invited to
Sai Baba for talks almost every day. He kissed my cheek and was
physically very close to me. That didn't worry me; even in Sweden
we sometimes do like that. But then he touched my trousers between
my legs and started to massage my penis. "Don't be afraid!" he
said, "this is a divine touch." He took out my penis and touched
it, and I touched his penis. He explained this with that my
kundalini was to be changed.
- Because he was God and had saved my life I let it happen. I
became a kind of favourite to him. I had frequent private talks
with Sai Baba.
- We were always very close physically. He never came that close to
women. He is interested in boys and men from the age of 8 up to 30.
When you become 30, you are no longer interesting.
Conny Larsson became one of the movement's spiritual leaders in
Sweden. In 1983 there were rumours that Sai Baba was cheating with
his materializations and that he had sexual relations with young
boys. Conny couldn't believe that this was true.
- But in 1986 I finally understood that he was doing the same
things to other boys that he had done to me many years ago. I got
to know the boys and asked them questions. They all told me the
same story. The swami hade oral sex with them of whome many very
heterosexual. The explanation was always that he was going to
change their kundalini. - You wonder whether women don't have the
kundalini power.
Conny also became a witness to Sai Baba's cheating with
materializations.
- I decided never to tell anybody about this. I thought he tested
my faith in him.
Conny felt worse and worse by what he found out. Sai Baba was the
center of Conny's whole life since a long time.
- In January 1999 I got in touch with a Swedish boy, who had had
six interviews with the swami. I noticed that the boy was shaken.
He told me about the same things that had happened to me. It was
about masturbation - the swami opened the boy's trousers and
started to masturbate him - but no penetration. The boy withdrew
but the swami insisted. Then the boy turned to a medical doctor and
asked for help, but because of his age the doctor had never been
exposed to the swami's improper advances, so he told the boy that
he must have misunderstood the situation.
- During the last interview the boy had with the swami, the boy's
mother was present. She had come to bring her two sons home with
her. I saw how Sai Baba took out things from behind the cushion and
then "manifested" them "miraculously". Then everything crashed for
me. The boy left the ashram completely broken-hearted. According to
the latest information from India the shop is found where Sai Baba
buys the things he materializes. It's a shop in Hyderabad.
Some of us who have received gold things and diamonds from Sai
Baba, have had them examined by experts and have been told that
they are all junk pieces and not gold; diamonds were stained
glass.
In Sweden the Gimle school, which was based on Sai Baba's
philosophy, has been closed because of Baba's sexual actions. And
Conny Larsson has stopped a movie about his life, in which Sai
Baba's importance to him is the core. But the movement in Sweden
continues as if nothing has happened, and it is still participating
in tours to Sai Baba's ashram in Puttaparthi.
Conny points out that there are leaders in the movement who have
known for a long time what the swami does with boys and young men.
They say it is "divine". There are also leaders who know about the
cheating with miracles and protect him. There are strong interests
behind Sai Baba and his reputation to be an avatar.
What effects have these unveilings had on Conny? He says that he
has had to change his concept of God.
- Now I believe in God inside me and in all human beings.
He adds:
- I feel tired and have compassion with all of them who have
believed in Sai Baba and have been duped. But at the same time I
wish to thank all the Sai friends for our moments together at
satsangs, camps and courses, where we generated love and truth in
spite of the illusion we in good faith all lived in. Once more:
Thanks to everyone!
Annastina Vrethammar's opinion
Sai Baba has been a man of great importance to Annastina
Vrethammar. After the sad unveilings about the swami she says that
what is told about the swami doesn't fit in with his reputation of
being an avatar. Today there are many questions around his person.
Therefore she has decided not to reprint her latest book and not to
publish a new book she has written.
But Annastina does not think that all the miracles around Sai Baba
are bogus. There are obvious facts about his miracles. He has for
example miraculously shown himself to different people and helped
them, she says. And she thinks that Sai Baba's philosophy is of
high quality.
Sai Baba tells us he is God, but at the same time he teaches that
we are all divine beings and that God is in everything, everywhere,
Annastina points out.
Jan Erik Sigdell about Sai Baba
- There is a book that pretends to unveil Sai Baba's hidden life.
Its title is "Lord of the Air" and it is written by Tal Brooke
(Lion Publishing, Herts, Berkhamsted 1976). I found it in Bangalore
when it was newly published and bought a copy, which some years
later I could not find in my library. Its disappearence was
enigmatic, since I use to maintain a good order in my library. The
book may have been stolen by some visitor. I tried to find it again
some years later, in order to buy a new copy, but it was
impossible. However, a Christian library in Bangalore had the book,
and I got it copied there.
I am neither for or against Sai Baba, since I think I cannot judge
him. No doubt he can materialize, because I have seen that myself.
But I must admit that the question came up in me: from where has he
got his power? Is it really "from above"? I have no answer to that
question.
In his book Tal Brooke tells his story. He was a devotee for a long
time, until he had a shocking experience. He writes that Sai Baba
opened his trousers and took out his penis. After that he got in
contact with other boys, who had had similar experiences. One of
them said that Sai Baba masturbated him and took his sperm in his
own handkerchief, which he put in his pocket. -
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