Started playing with my penis at 3 years old the same year I saw
my parents fornicate on my bed naked. Was masturbating at around 13
years old. Was lying on my grandmother's bed when I felt that my
penis can actually erect - now that was an experience because as a
toddler we know we have a penis and the penis actually becomes
slightly longer when urinating, yet somehow when I thought of any
prettier female classmate when I was 13, the penis surprisingly
felt that it could feel 'good' especially as I rubbed it with my
legs or some bed linen. It was the very feeling, so as a kid I did
experiment, I learned that if I keep rubbing this penis softly it
feels better and better, or warmer and warmer, and eventually what
got me totally shocked on the first day I masturbated was when my
semen came goshing out automatically from the child-ly erect penis
when it got somewhat pushed to the 'limit'. I was still wearing my
shorts then, so when the semen came it felt so starchy that I had
anything but a clue what to do with it since I was on my
grandmother's bed. Quickly covered back up my penis with my
somewhat-wet shorts, then subtly visiting the toilet and having it
changed and the shorts washed.
It was several days or weeks later when I masturbated again,
back then my eldest cousin was going for a wedding engagement, it
was queer yet I learned that I better try it out in the toilet and
pretend I was pooping, so I sat in the toilet and personally
witnessed how by re-enacting the same sensual rubbing i.e. feeling
good and warm eventually the semen shot out from the teenage
genital. Within a few weeks I did the Science lessons in secondary
school and they i.e. the science teacher and textbook told me that
this was a design feature of a mammalian body.
The books, as many Singaporeans too know it, taught about the
anatomy of the male and female genitals all the way till the actual
fornication - less the graphics during my time - around the same
time the Ministry of Health sent some aunties that got my
classmates undressed individually in some kind of a music room
configuration, then each of these aunties tested our penises
including mine for certain behaviour or condition.
I may think less of masturbation being a social concern or
problem, whether boys or girls, yet bullying are at times something
that i grew up with yet had little clue addressing.