I didn't post this in aunt agony because I don't find myself in
agony, but it's quite weird. I have these few nice girls who like
me but I don't fancy them.. So I don't waste their time by not
giving them any signals. Because I don't want them to lose out on
other good opportunities/guys in their life.
But there is this other girl who likes me and say sweet things
to me but the problem? She's a very bad girl... she's only 20 but
she smokes and is a drug addict, have tattoos all over, not
working, don't like to study, basically a good for nothing but i
like her more than other girls, lol... i find the whole situation
so funny basically but i keep telling her that she's just a good
friend to me. no sex involved at all because i don't want to give
her wrong signals... but she keeps taking me as her bf...
but i keep thinking about her because she's super sweet and
say sweet things to me. she's like super caring towards me and
makes me smile whenever we're together... but although i have
feelings for her but logically i don't want to marry such a
girl.
i find that god is playing a joke and i don't know what to do...
secretly i hope she don't ask me out but if she do, i find it hard
to say no, even if i have so much work... whereas other girls ask i
can flatly say i dun want.
this is a situation where my heart and mind go different
directions. mind says no, heart says yes. *sigh sigh sigh!!!*
